when we cross paths again. chuuya x Dazai smut 16+ (slowburn)

you'll have to survive without me...

Chuuya couldn't wrap his head around his feelings completely but he knew what he wanted. He wanted to tell Dazai, of course chuuya knew that there was a chance Dazai would say no. But there was also a chance he would say yes. Chuuya knew he had to brace himself for either answers. However when the day came that chuuya decided to tell Dazai it didn't go as planned. In fact, it left chuuya stumped. "Where are we going?" Dazai said in a lazy tone. "Would you shut up? I'll tell you when we're there" Chuuya fired back. The brunette followed along with chuuya until they reached a secluded part of town, maybe one or two small shops but there where no houses and very few people. "You plan to kill me or something?" Dazai teased, chuuya simply brushed this comment off. After all if chuuya wanted Dazai dead his best bet would be to poison him Instead. Dazai looked at chuuya with confusion however. "Why did you bring me here chuuya?" Chuuyas expression quickly changed from his normal high and mighty look to a very flustered and embarrassed expression. "I need to tell you something..." Dazai looked at chuuya with a surprised expression "you want to tell me something?" The ginger nodded with an embarrassed expression plastered onto his face. Chuuya just wanted to get these feelings out...before it was to late. Chuuya fidgeted with his hair for a moment. "I ...um" Dazai looked even more confused "you what?" Chuuya felt his heart pound in his stomach "I just wanted to tell you that.....I..." Dazai waited and listened, after all he didn't really know where they were so leaving wasn't an option, he had no choice but to wait for chuuya to Finnish what he was trying to say. Chuuya felt his breathing increase, he was panicking. He didn't know how to word his feelings so with his last bit of sanity he took a deep breath and muttered "I....like ...you". Dazai stood there for a moment. "You....WHAT!?" Dazai shouted in confusion. "N-NOW JUST HOLD ON A MINUTE. YOU AS IN, CHUUYA NAKAHARA LIKE ME?" chuuya stood there for a second, all he could do was nod, he thought if he spoke again he was going to go crazy. Dazai stood there dumbfounded "I...um..." Chuuya waited for Dazais response. Dazai let out a deep sigh to collect himself "why...." chuuya's gaze snapped to Dazai. "What do you mean 'why?'" chuuya said with a confused tone "Why do you like me?". This is the question chuuya feared. He didn't know how to explain his feelings for Dazai exactly, he just knew he wanted to be with him, chuuya liked Dazai for Dazai....but how is he supposed to word it... Dazai gently patted chuuyas head "when you can answer that is when I'll give you my answer....but until then you'll have to live without me, alright?" Chuuya felt his heart sink. Just because he didn't know how to word what he was feeling Dazai was going to torment him by making him wait? "Alright..." Chuuya muttered. Dazai smiled teasingly the entire way back to the port Mafia base, after all, it's not like he rejected chuuya. He just wants to know why chuuya loves him.