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HOPE

hope/həʊp/     nounnoun: hope; plural noun: hopes1. a feeling of expectation and desire for a particular thing to happen."he looked through her belongings in the hope of coming across some information"

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after my dad beat me he went and drank more beer and i just laid there crying

i just want it to end all the hitting i just want him to love me like i am actually his daughter is that not much to ask for. all i want is the love that a child gets from a parent sometimes i think how would it feel if my mom was still here and my dad was not sad anymore maybe he would actually love me and not hurt me

i don't blame him i would be broken if my loved one died it hurts to see him like this i remember when he would call me princess and make me sit on his shoulder but now?

now his making me lay on the cold wooded floor crying thinking about the past, the past that was so happy and me not knowing how cruel this shitty ass world is blaming people for what they have not done its just plain sad

maybe one day the world can see how much we hurt people and how it leads to something bad we never choose to be nice we just choose to who

i never understood the meaning of hope because when i had hoped of something nothing happened

i had hope my mother would live she died

i had hoped i would speak i am still mute

i had hope i would make friends i maybe have one hoseok

i had hope to have a better father but i couldn't choose

i hoped and hoped but the only hope i have is hoping i eat that day sometimes it comes true sometimes i starve

why can't i be happy all i am is scared and worthless