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MOMMY

mommy/ˈmɒmi/     nouninformal•North Americannoun: mommy; plural noun: mommiesone's mother (chiefly as a child's term).Origin

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"who looks after you that your mom is not here?"ms jung asks looking over to me as we drive in her car "my father" i simply said looking out the window "would he not be so worried that your not home at this time of night" she looks at me shocked "no" i say slowly looking at her "he would not care" i added looking back down while playing with my fingers

the silence is so loud, i sat there thinking about what she said 'will she take me in from that ugly monster' i thought to myself "why not" she suddenly asks in a very soft tone "because he doesn't love me, not after my mother died he blames it on me"i looked at her and she looks broken "ugh sweetie it was definitely not at your fault" she assured me while putting her hand on my leg "having to blame yourself for someones death is not great in the future trust me" she said i looked at he

"what do you mean did you lose someone and blame yourself" she looked at me with a smile on he face full of tears "before i had hoseok, i was pregnant with his brother" she choked on her tears "you don't have to tell me" i said as she pulled the car over on the street " no no darling i want to tell you" she turned and faced her body towards me "well i was pregnant hoseoks father left me and jiwoo in the middle of the night, i was sad" i listened so closely

"when i gave birth to hoseoks brother, a year later hoseoks father came back with a very lame excuse" she laughed and so did i "then we got together of course jiwoo was still young so she properly doesn't remember this, soon hoseoks brother jiseok was his name, he got sick so i toke him o the docter we found out he had cancer" i gasped she sucked in her breath "i was so devastated i couldn't believe that my little boy could die any moment so all i did was stayed by his side and i told him it was fine" i was in tears "soon after that i found out i was pregnant with hoseok but hoseoks father was NOT happy so"she looked at me

"he left. again"she sobbed "i was alone well pregnant and two kids one with cancer i didn't know where to go or who to ask for help i couldn't afford rent or hospital bills so i couldn't save him"she broke down in tears "MY LITTLE JISEOKIE IS GONE FOR EVER" she screamed

she hugged me and her cry's for her deceased son soon died down

"a women who lost her husband is called a widow" she looks at me

"a man who lost his wife is called a widower, a kid who lost there parents is called an orphan. But there is no pain for a parent who has lost there child, do you know why?" she looks at me "why" she asks like a curious cat

"because there is no word in this world that can describe the excruciating pain they feel"