(ˈɪnə sɛlf ) a person's true or internal mind, soul, or nature. a quest to find your inner self and your own uniqueness. the search for the inner self through interpretation of dreams. Collins English Dictionary.
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Most people have a chapter they don't read out loud
well, this is my chapter
after awhile of sitting in my room i hear the front door open downstairs.
shit my monster is here, and i am not up for his shit right now. i wish hoseoks mom didn't drop me home
"YOU FUCKING SLUT COME HERE RIGHT NOW!"he screamed loud enough for the dogs to hear. i ran downstairs and the first thing i felt was a slap across my face, i can smell he was drinking before i came here so i know he is going to be worse on me tonight
"where the fuck were you when i came home huh" he pointed his finger on my head pushing it slightly, right now all i thought about was to not lose MY shit
"answer me"he whispered grabbing my neck tightly, i know whats going to happen next and i wont be able to deal with it
"fine, don't answer me. ill force it out of you" he said pulling my arm up the stairs. i was sure now what he was going to do and i burst into tears
i pulled my arm back away from him but his grip was to tight it caused red marks around my wrist
he got to his bedroom and pushed me in it, i fell hard
at this point i can't do anything
he is bigger and grown i'm just a weak useless little girl who has to just go with whats about to happen
"please father im sorry i was at school please et me go im sorry"i said "shut your mouth in till i tell you what to fucking do slut"
"your a fucking worthless piece of shit may as well make you useful" he said unbuckling his belt
i am a worthless piece of shit but no matter what a kid or anyone is they should never experience something like this ever most defiantly not from their own blood
he now is fully undressed and it makes me feel so disgusted, he tries to come closer to me but i back away
"come here now"he demanded i do as he said and walk towards him
he slapped me across the face and shoved me down and sat on top of me
he held me down by my hands and tried to force kiss me but i turned my head away many times, he slapped me again the tried to undess me
i got mad i was fucking furious i cant let him do this to me again i never liked it and I NEVER FUCKING WILL
suddenly he thrown up into the roof and fell back down with a bloody face
did i do this? did i?
they say real monsters are not the ones you fear, its the ones you trust
i trusted my father turns of his the biggest monster i have ever known and yes maybe theres more people i would meet that will be a monster but i don't ever EVER think someone will be as bad has him, god stood me up and i don't know why
he lifted his head "what happened" he asked still naked
"your a mean MEAN FUCKING BITCH HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO YOUR OWN DAUGHTER"i screamed "i trusted you dad i loved you i CARED for you and this is what i get back why do you do this all to me"i said with tears in my eyes
"because your the reason for my loves death"was his last words
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The beauty of her art
FanfictionA mute girl whose looked down on She's found someone who will see the beauty In her art well others look and laugh
