Shoot or lose

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June 29th - 1995
New Jersey

Angel

Warm weather and a day off. What more could I ask for?

I'm Angel. College drop out, huge fan of Alice in chains and known as Magic fingers at the Casino I work at.

Shoot or lose is my entire life. It created my badass personally, cause before all this, my life was shit. A living hell. I was sleeping on a bench most nights by the Broad street. No big meals, no hot showers and never good clothing.

But look how the tables turned. Walking around the mall with my best friends, one on each arm, planning to buy some nice dresses. Who would have thought?

I'm grateful and mostly proud of myself for getting this far. Success is only worth it if I'm happy and right now.....I'm thrilled.

I'm not rich or anything but the money I conquered with my own effort, put a roof above my head, nice meals in my plates and shiny clothes in my wardrobe.

"Lilith, stop pushing my boobs together" I look up from my lap and see my two best friends rooming around the dressing room like crazy.

My best friends. Rebekah and Lilith. My gorgeous soul sisters.

Rebekah is a powerful Colombian woman. Best merengue dancer I know, sweeter than candy, charming and bold. I've known her for over two years, since I started working at the casino.

She and Lilith were there already.

She's one of the hosts, obviously since she's the best interacting with snob fucks. Beka is responsible for hosting special events, greet the guests and handle the floors. She's always moving. Walking around with those cool walkie talkies.

"Well...they look nicer this way" Lili says while pushing her hands below Rebekah's boobs to lift them up.

Lilith, also known as Hot thing. She's our hot white chick. Lili is a gentle, intelligent and naive woman. She doesn't have a bad bone in her body.

One time we were leaving the casino, after closing up. She was walking confidently even after 5 shots of straight vodka, when accidentally, she bumped into an old homeless lady making her things fall to the ground.

Lilith gave the woman two 100 dollar bills, bought her a cake and a soda and still cried for 2 hours. She's the best kind of person.

"Are you saying they're shaggy?" Beka looks at herself in the mirror worried.

"As if Beka, your boobs are my favourite thing in the world, but hear me out when I say this dress is not it" I nod quietly.

"Angie? What do you think?" With my arms crossed and my legs spread I take a careful look at my friend.

"They look kinda lopsided"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP, REALLY?" She shouts desperately, fixing her eyes on the mirror at her front.

"Forget I said anything" I whisper laughing to myself.

"This is hella embarrassing" She tries to cover herself up.

"Rebekah all boobs are gorgeous" I tell her.

"Thanks I guess"  I wink before getting up and strolling near Lilith, she's covering her own smile. "I'm gonna change, I ain't buying this stuff. I don't want the guys to look at my tits and say "they look kinda lopsided" She throws that obvious shade at me, being her usual brat self.

"I didn't mean to hurt your feelings, sugar" She rolls her eyes, dropping the dress back on the shelf and pulling both mine and Lilith's hands.

We're going around the shops, trying on every overpriced item just to grumble about how we can't buy it, when my flip phone rings. We all make a surprise sound when the unnecessary loud music begins playing.