A relationship on prescription

Calme Plat! Maybe not

It’s 9.30am, I’ve been awake since 7am this morning, I haven’t slept much at night and for good reason, this file transfer thing has had a big impact on me. I must say that I don’t understand his reaction, he was extremely kind and understanding towards me. I’m a bit lost here, I’m surfing on my phone, my brother and his girlfriend sent me pictures of their holidays, they are both in the Maldives for a month’s holiday. It’s so beautiful there. I find myself dreaming of being in the Maldives with Matt. Just him and me on the beach in front of the setting sun, him taking me in his arms and wrapping a blanket around me so I don’t get cold… Ohhh Luce, pull yourself together ! What is happening to you ! He’s the one making you suffer and you’re surprised to be with him when maybe he’s already forgotten you. I wake up from my torpor and get ready to go to my parents’ house, they have invited me to have lunch with them. I get dressed and leave the flat. Matt is still not in his flat. Yes, it’s true, I looked, but I really wanted to know if he was trying to avoid me and apparently he is. I know that being a doctor is busy, but still ! I get in the car and drive to my parents’ house, from there we eat and spend a quiet afternoon. After 4pm, I leave my parents and go bowling with Irina. We had two cocktails and played a game of bowling. Irina won and I followed her closely, well if we can call it that, nearly 80 points ! Still ! We say goodbye and I head back to the flat. I don’t feel like eating alone so I go to the little sushi restaurant on the corner of my building. I sit down at a table and order my board. I’m on my phone when the door of the restaurant opens, I don’t even bother to look up, no matter who it is. I want to be alone with my ideas and theories about Matt. My order arrives and it’s only then that I look up at the waiter, he puts the order down and I see behind him leaning at the bar Matt also eating sushi. I don’t have the impression that he has seen me, well, I don’t even want to see him. I thank the waiter and start eating. When I finish my plate, I get up and go to the bar to pay, but I still feel sick to my stomach because I have to pay next to him. I take my courage in both hands and head towards the bar. The waiter cashes me in and I feel Matt’s eyes on me. I swallow hard, I try to swallow normally, but feeling him next to me makes me feel all squirmy. I feel like I’ve been standing in front of this bar for ages, waiting for the waiter to cash me in and then click… Finally, it’s done, the payment has been made and I can leave, I didn’t even look at him. I don’t want to see him, every time I’m with him I feel hot, I feel my heart miss beats and I want to be snuggled up to him. I leave the restaurant and get back into my car, drop it off at the garage and go back up to my flat. I open my door and close it again. I shower and get ready for bed. I look at the TV and see through my window that Matt is finally home for at least a week ! This is fantastic. Then I fall asleep on this encounter that has shaken me up so much…