Dominating Secrets [BDSM]DISCONTINUED

CHAPT3R 3IGHT33N

Ok first want to start off by saying waddup!.. Lol I want to thank you guys for reading my book. I know 1000 views isn't alot to some but it is to me... Anywho here ya go

Matthew's POV

The days draw together now. All like one big blend of boringness. And I swear to god if I hear one more thing about me being off, I'm going to fire everyone. Honestly my relationship with my staff isn't close enough for them to tell me what they think. The fact they think I give a fuck amuses me. Maybe that's why I let them say it.

Its been two weeks since Ashley left and I find my self thinking about her. I think about her all the time now. I'm on the verge of going to see her, but I know she wants nothing to do with me. a spark runs threw my hands and I clench them remembering each cry out in pain. I honestly could of stopped, And if I was whole heartedly honest. I shouldn't of started. Any true dominant knows not to punish there subs if there upset. It becomes more abusive than you want or plan.

But the question I've been pondering all week is, Did I really want her to safe word? A part of me wanted her to, for the simple fact that she was practically jumping away from me. And no I didn't because she disobeyed me. I needed to remind her that bad actions lead to bad consequences.

I wont lie .I don't like a sub who always pleases, I love a challenge. But she was something else. She pushed apart of me I didn't think could move... Christ. I swear my head is a fucking confessional, but I'm not getting any damn advice.

Maybe a new sub would help me. But who the hell am I kidding. I don't want a new one, I want her. And I know if I get a new sub I'll punish them for not being or acting like her, and that's wrong. I have feelings for her. I new it the first time we had sex but god if she really new about me the real me she would never want to see me again. I sigh in frustration contemplating whether to start my work or delay it further.

A knock at my door brings me out of my sobering thoughts, I rip my eyes away from the smug Boston skyline. Its a foggy day and the sky only projects the way I feel on the inside.

"What?" I snap annoyingly. Its not her fault I'm upset, but who else am I going to blame? Surely not myself. I never do I snort.

"Mr Yates s-sir. The dwellings company is here for the meeting"

I groan inwardly. I'm not in the mood for people. I'm in the mood for one person, and I can't have her. I can buy anything I want but the one thing I want is not for sale.

I'll probably go home and pleasure myself , since she can't. I'll imagine it was her mouth. That beautiful mouth. Her reluctant tongue swirling around me. Those soft precious lips pulling me deeper. She has such a fuckable mouth. I can feel my cock twitch in excitement as images of her flash threw my mind. Jesus Matt pull your shit together.

"Brenda tell them I'm going to half to reschedule" I continue to look out onto the same old Boston. I don't hear my door close so I know she's still standing in the door way. I turn to look at her. She looks hesitant about what she's going to say. Almost like she's choosing her words carefully. Smart idea. I've been in the firing mood lately.

"Sir they said you've rescheduled twice and-"

"I'm aware - forget it, I'll cancel it myself. Next time I ask you to do something do it." I ground out. Brenda has been my PA for four years and I've never yelled at her before. She frowns and exits the office.

Once upon a time i thought she would make a good little sub. She's shy and does what i say no questions asked but then of coarse I met Ashley the same say. Then again its not smart mixing business with pleasure. But if Ashley worked for me I wouldn't think twice fucking her on my table or any surface possible. My lips curve is disgust remembering the whip gliding across her back. I'm not that person anymore. I've been good for so long. This isn't a set back to my progress... Right? Once again a question with no answer. Maybe I am acting a little strange.

I walk into the board room and they all turn around to look at me.

"Mr Yate-"

" the meeting is cancelled. I've moved it to three months from now. That's the only slot I have left. As you know I'm a busy man. If you don't agree to this I guarantee your company will fold in one year's time, after all, it's my money you want ,and if I'm honestly speaking I don't want to see your presentation. It bores me, but I know your company can go through the roof you just need the money and resources, I have both so three months from now I expect you in the same room getting straight to the point. Thank you for your time and understanding." I walk out to find Brenda waiting for me nervously. I should say sorry but I'm not going to. Just like you should have stopped hitting her. The thought comes too fast for me to refute. Fuck your brain.

" Brenda get my sister on the line" I walk into my office. I'm aching to see her. I miss her. The line rings and I'm quick to answer it

" Vanessa" I smile

" well if it isn't my brother Matthew" I can feel the grin through the phone.

" how are you?"

" the usual, but the phone call isn't. We haven't seen each other in a while if I can remember it clearly you never called me back."

" I know and I'd like to make up for that how about dinner tonight?"

" my brother wants to take me out to dinner? this should be intriguing. then again I'll never turn you down to a good meal when and where."

"I never tire of your sarcasm. and the' when' in your sentence is redundant being that I said tonight. frencenious Is highly recommended by me" I miss my sister. We were inseparable as children. But as time went on and I went into business we grew apart. She'll always be my twin sister though. She could always tell what I was thinking. and as a dominant I didn't like that.

" so you finally take me up on my offer to try that restaurant huh?"

" yes "

" Why the sudden change of heart?"

" there is no change in heart" I growl. This is what I mean!

" why so hostile then?"

" I'm not. Look I have something to go through I'll pick you up tonight."

" of course Mr boss man" I hang up breathing out. holy shit I'm going to see Ashley. there's a weird bubble in my throat and I find my self adjusting my tie. for the first time in my life I'm actually nervous to see a woman. it's usually the other way around and I like it that way. The rest of the day I'm in a somewhat better mood. But the waiting is fucking killing me. I'm not a patient man. If I was patient I would have calmed down before I hurt her... Fuck. is everything going to come back to her? I can't live with this. I can't find the word... Hurt? No because the only one who should be hurt is her. Longing? No I fucking sound like a lost boy. Guilt? Maybe guilt but I've done worse. I've done way worse. I'm not going to go into my past just for one answer I'll subside.

I know its hella short but I'll update tomorrw I think or again today depends on the amount of views. Enjoy

~love yas