I don't know how to feel, it's a thousand things accumulated one after another, so much so that there comes a time in the day when everything stops and you stop feeling, you're just on autopilot and it's weird Not being in control of your life is weird.
I don't know what to feel I don't know how to express it, I can feel too much sadness or too much anger but there is never a middle ground, there is never enough peace, I just block everything when it's too much,
It's the only way I can protect myself, block everything I feel and continue...
Alone I know I'm alone and it's ok I can live with it, the people in my life never stay long enough and it's something normal in my life although I would like to say the opposite
I guess deep down I'm still hoping someone will stay, but I'm aware enough that no one will and I'm so used to the feeling of abandonment it stays the same I just have to say "it's alright, I'll be alright, at the end of the day I only have myself"
Life is usually a bitch but you have two options fight it and try to change it or just adapt and survive, I just chose to survive for now, I just have to fulfill the objective that life has, I am just one more link in someone's life, a moment, a memory, an experience is everything That's what we are all "moments"
For a while I tried to fight against destiny but now I only realize that I could never fight against it, it's only my destiny and I will accept it as if it were death
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RandomI wrote this book so that some people understand a little about the disorder and also so that I could say what happens many times when I have a crisis or I just get depressed, life is usually shit but if you write it you free yourself a little...
