Rick's Death

Rick's Death Chpter 4

" It's not crazy Rick... Because she is here with us and she always will be sometimes when I would head for bed she would be there... Just waiting to tell me she's looking out for me..." Jessie replied 

Gail and Genesis joined Jessie and Rick out by the river stream with something that Lesley passed to Gail a few weeks prior to when she passed away, something seemed off though because because only Genesis was with Gail and Jessie knew something seemed wrong

" I'm gonna see that Jesslyn is okay... Her and I will be out in a moment.." Jessie headed to go talk to Jesslyn

Jesslyn continued to just stay in her space while everyone else gathered out along the stream..

" Jesslyn it's Jessie.... Could we maybe talk for alittle bit?" Jessie asked and lightly knocked on the door

Jesslyn felt that Lesley was there when she continued to stay in her space... Jessie slowly came into the room to try to help Jesslyn.

" I thought maybe we could talk for a bit....?" Jessie sat next to Jesslyn

" Momma and me used to talk even when she was first sick back before Easter..... Now I have no one to talk to... Not about my problems or fears about something like thinking about pursuing a relationship, nothing... She's gone and I'm just all alone."

" I thought like this once.... It was many years ago when I was about your mom's age... Maybe alittle older than your mother was... My little girl was just alittle younger than your brother is when she was taken from her dad and I… My late husband and I we never saw our little girl again" Jessie sat beside Jesslyn.. 

" After my late husband died I tried my hardest to close everything and everyone off, even Doctor Hardy but there was someone who refused to leave me alone or let me close her away from my trouble and to this day there was never one Moment where I wasn’t grateful or where I didn’t feel loved.... I never forgot who it was that helped me put pieces together to see that it was okay to show my feelings or to show when I was upset." Jessie turned and looked towards as if Lesley was standing nearby smiling back..

" Who was it that wouldn't let you be alone?" 

" It was your mother who helped me learn that closing yourself out could only hurt us later down the road.... You wanna know what one of her final wishes she asked me to do?" Jessie brought her arm around Jesslyn's shoulder

" What?" Jesslyn replied

" She asked that I look after you and your sister and your brother... But she also said don't let my little Snoopi try to bottle up the way I always had... That was one of her biggest concerns. That you’d follow in her same footsteps with that bad habit of hiding your real feelings about certain things. She also asked that I take you under my wing as I did when I first met your mother." 

" I don't want Momma to be mad at me or upset... I guess I should open up more and show Momma I'm okay or at least I'm trying to be okay..." Jesslyn hugged Jessie and got up.

“ You don't have to hide how you feel about things Jesslyn. Your mother would be on your back telling you it's okay to be upset.” 

Jessie and Jesslyn finally started to come out to meet with everyone but Jesslyn wanted to say something first when she looked up at Rick and reached for his hand. " Dad, I'm sorry I was refusing to participate..."

Rick showed a small smile and wrapped an arm around Jesslyn " Sweetheart don't be sorry, today is a hard time for all of us... Your mother was a very special woman to us and she loved you more than you know just like I do and your sister and your brother… I think today we should try to remember that while it's a painful reminder that she had passed away, we can take it into comfort that she's at peace and there's no more suffering or pain that she has to go through anymore."