Changes - Stay with me

Routh

Shit.

I was hanging.
There was a rope around my neck.

She is going to kill me.

I try not to panick. I know, things like this happened before, but I've never hung with a rope around my neck.
I'm definetly gonna die this time.

Shit. Shit. Shit.

How the hell did I end up right here?
How did I end up hanging one feet above the floor ?And an even better question: How am I getting out of this situation?

Just hold on to the rope.

I try reaching for my phone, holding on to the rope with one hand, searching for the pocket of my jeans with the other one.
„Aron.", I whimper.
He told me this would happen. He told me long ago.
He was the only one seeing it.

Shit.

I definetly fucked up.
I don't want anybody to know about this messed up shit that just happened here.
This is just so fucked up.

She is definetly gonna kill me.

Finally I am able to pull out my phone.
Who should I call.
„Aron, I'm sorry.", I whimper and I know, that this time I really mean it.

I didn't use this phrase with full honesty for a very long time.

My life is such a mess.
But at least I could try calling Aron.

It's too late now. I should have apologized long ago and I absolutely know that.

I could at least try to apologize.
Even if Aron isn't the kind of person that takes apologies.
Aron is a person you shouldn't mess with, he is the kind of person that's gonna wait for the boomerang to come back and will directly walk away if it doesn't work on first try.

I'm a mess. The biggest problem is, that I know I am.

Aron was right, he always is.
And even if i would be sure, he wouldn't come to save me of her, he would be the only one I could call.
There's nobody else.

This is so fucking messed up.