Letter nine: I wonder what goes on in your head sometimes, in those moments where you excessively laugh-it's like your screaming at me "I KNOW SOMETHING YOU DONT FUCKIN LOSER!" But hey I mean at least your laugh is possibly the second cutest noise I've ever heard (the first of course being Ike Eveland making cat noises when he stretches)
Letter ten: still in genuine disbelief that I made you cum. LIKE HOW TF????? I DIDN'T DO NOTHING BUT DESCRIBE WHAT I WAS DOING IRL?? Bonus points, for some reason it flusters the shit out of me when you say it still hurts to walk (like omg I did that)
Letter eleven: it's been about 4 minutes and the dominant horny trans masc is reappearing. I want to give you hickeys all over and make you scream.
Letter twelve: I've noticed I'm much more descriptive when I'm a bottom, is there science behind that???? Maybe it's just that I feel like I need to put in more work when I'm subbing. I've always had a complicated relationship with myself in that aspect, I feel insecure by accepting love-like I'm accepting too much. It's odd to me that this happens because to me it seems like toxic masculinity even though I'm trans so that's not something I engraved in me-it is very well also a trauma response too though. For this reason I don't really like it when you say you like me best when I'm a bottom, yes it turns me on, but it also makes me insecure about my lack of balance in my sex life between how much I'm topping and bottoming (this even used to happen to me when I was cuddling my body pillow, I felt insecure because I felt like I was accepting too much)
Letter thirteen: I can't stop looking at my ring and touching it-I also can't shut up about it. I show it off every chance I get no matter how intense my sensory issues are, I also kiss it sometimes in hopes you can feel my love.
Letter fourteen: just remembered, I tried to grab your ass several times today and every time I was rejected before I got the chance to even reach the fucking cake 🍰 anyways. SMACK MAH ASS LIKE THE DRUM 🥁🎶🎶🎶
Letter fifteen: AHHHHHHHH YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY YOUR SO PRETTY
Letter sixteen: why does it feel so nice when you say "oh really?"
Letter seventeen: 9:19pm I want to lap fuck
