I wish
That you would hurt me.
Not emotionally.
Trust me, you've already done enough damage
To my heart
My mind
My soul
It would honestly be better
If you actually
Punched me
In the gut
So I knew what it actually felt like
Rather than feeling it every time
I see the green dot
By your name
Or see that number
Go up again
While my name
Remains "delivered"
Grab me and slap me across the face
Tell me I didn't matter
Tell me I wasn't worth it
Tell me everything was a lie
And a game
Come take
What so many other people
Have already taken
Without a yes.
Because it belongs to you anyway
I can't tell you no
The second you come back
I'm putty in your arms
So hurt me
Screw chivalry
Screw being a prince
Who cares about a knight in shining armor
We both know deep down,
the sneaky ninja of the night
Was your true calling.
Sneak
Lie
Hide.
Hurt me.
Put your hands on me
And
Hurt me
That would feel so much better
Than what you're doing to me now
Hurt me
Kick me
Kiss me
Tease me
Slap me
Push me
Just
Give me
Honesty
Set me free
Pull me in again
Run away again
Beg for me back again
Round and around
Keep me going until I'm dizzy
Keep the world spinning
I get sick when I think of you, anyway
Not in a hatred way
I wish it were in a hatred way
Grief
Loss
I miss you
I love you
God, I fucking love you
It makes me sick
And it hurts
To love someone this much
And never have it returned.
Sometimes, I think it's a game you play
With who? I'm not sure
But let's see how many times
You can leave and come back
And I'll fall right back again
I'll always fall right back again.
Forever
And always
I'll fall.
So hurt me.
I wish you would just physically, legitimately hurt me
So we can stop pretending.
So I can get off the carousel.
So I can stop spinning.
Hurt me.
Take it all out on me.
I'm begging you.
Please.
Just.
Hurt me.
What's stopping you?
Because it's physical?
You already have hurt me.
Just take it to the next level.
I can't take the emotional pain anymore.
I can't take the games anymore.
Take it.
Take me.
Hurt me.
