Resentment (A sibling au) [SLOW UPDATES]

Years go by..

After mother died everything wasn't the same.

But I will keep being strong to keep this family together!

Ayah is working..far away to earn money for us, he's entrusted the care of Tok and my brothers to me.

I shouldn't disappoint him, scratch that I won't disappoint him!

I'll take care of them.

Plus it's been five years since that incident everyone has been doing better...

Petir was the most affected, he was very close with Mak afterall...

I've tried talking to him...but..

"STOP ACTING LIKE YOU'RE MY MOTHER! YOU'LL NEVER BE AS GREAT COMPARED TO HER!"

He said almost two years ago..

That was my last, conversation with my dear older brother..

His words...

It's very painful..

.....Yeah.. I'll never be like her.

I'll never...

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"Abang Tanah!"

As a familiar small kid suddenly hugged my leg..

Brown hair, brown eyes and white and yellow colored attire.

"Cahaya- wait you're supposed to be with Daun in the playroom!"

"Abang Tanah looked sad...so I..."

As he hugged tighter.

"I don't wanna see Abang Tanah sad!"

Even as a five-year-old Cahaya is completely capable of spitting out full sentences...

He's smart..

"Cahaya... I'm fine don't worry.."

"No! You're not you're lying, that tone of voice when you lie!"

God sometimes...I wish he wasn't this smart..

I don't want him to worry so much..

As I breathe in and out, I gently carried the small child.

"I'm fine Cahaya..no need to worry so much you're just a kid.."

I pinched his cheek he pouted.

"Hey! I'm not a kid!"

I chuckled.

"Oh I forgot! You're a big boy."

As I moved my other hand to pat his head, still carrying him with my other hand.

"Now... don't you think Daun would be lonely since you left him..?"

His eyes widened as he started panicking.

"N-no- I didn't mean to leave- Abang-! Please please bring me back to the playroom! Daun will start crying again!"

He cried.

"Alright alright, we'll go now..."

We walked around the hallway, leading to the playroom.

I bumped into a familiar...

Yellow capped brother of mine.

[A/N: I'M ALIVE HAHAHHA I'M ALIVE?? WOO SURPRISE SURPRISE I'M ALIVE]