Behind The Barriers

Hidden pain

The death

Was less than six years ago

The wound

Inflicted six years ago

My life was destroyed

And no one noticed

Still, no one notices

And the pain continues

I won't be able to see

The last of the things she owned

I won't be able to see

The house she lived in,

The house

she raised her kids in

The house I loved more

Each time I visited

I still cry

I still hurt

My mother,

My father,

They don't notice

My friends,

I guess I hide it too well.

I wish someone would see through

All my disguises

The masks, and smiles.

I wish someone would try

To find the real reason

As to why I don't speak often.

The pain gets too strong

When the ones who won't remember

All her smiles and jokes,

Are taken to see the house.

Some may notice

My sadness,

But no one presses.

Oh, how I wish they would.

The ones who could tell

And helped without asking

Are gone

I'm left alone

To cope with pain

And another move.

I wish the mask I wear

Would fall

And the pain I hide

Would come into the light

I need help with this

But there's no one around

And her death

Is left behind in the shadows

The only tears shed

Were mine.