I can hear the voices around me
Shouting, whispering
Begging for my attention
For my desperate pleas
I am their servant.
It's funny, isn't it
How you can be all alone
Yet there is a single voice inside us all
A voice that is different from our own
A voice that takes over,
Controls our actions, influences our thoughts.
A voice that takes on a persona of their own.
A voice that ties up who you are, trapping them in a cage
And posing as the new you.
The you that is terrifying
The you that tells you to do things,
Dangerous things,
Things that can hurt others and your self.
Things that can become compulsions, the only thing driving your existence,
While slowly killing you.
Actions, words, and thoughts that are out of your control,
Our control,
Out of your possession.
They are you now, and there is nothing you can do to stop them.
Resistance to this you, to this voice, to these commands and compulssions
Is futile.
They are you.
The funny part is, these voices start out by being your best friends,
But turn out to be your greatest enemies.
You are your greatest enemy,
and you can't change a thing.
YOU ARE READING
Behind The Barriers
Poetrywarning: poems may include homophobia, gay stuff, violence, abuse, self harm, and/or suicide