ACT I A Fully Dysfunctional Family (S.A.M.S opposites day AU)

7

(curse warning)

[????? Pov]

No matter what I'm trying to say, I always end up telling it wrong.
Whatever the conversation, I'll ruin it somehow.
Don't mean to be, it's just how my brain works.
And my brain is faster than my heart. I don't mean all the hurt I have inflicted.
And when I leave, so I don't screw with anything else, I end up upsetting them even more.

How am I supposed to win?
It's not like I can even talk with them anymore.
I'm not angry with him though.
It was my fault.
I did it.

I did it Sun.
I did what you asked.
.
.
.
I wish I didn't.
I guess I should feel bad.
But I don't.
I can't.

My head is all wrong inside.
I'm worse off than Moon.
And to Moon and Eclipse,
I didn't mean any of it.
It feels like voices that aren't my own speaking to me.

I need to talk to someone.
But it's such an odd thought. To talk again.
To hear my own voice
...

I wonder what I sound like~
Do I sound like anything at all~
My voice has become forever silenced by the black blood that flows continually~
My home is not here~
I want to go back~

There's so many
thoughts

THERE_S SO MANY THOUGHTS

TOO MANY

I NEED TO STOP
STOP
STOP
STOP

...
I need ...
...

I need...

I NEED THE VOICES TO BE QUIET FOR ONE FUCKING MINUTE I CAN'T THINK I CAN'T THINK I NEED SOME TIME TO THINK-

The world is so loud.
The golden veins throb through the dark mass of city viewed below
Blood of the earth
Multicoloured lights
It's so bright
It is so much
So much...
So much..
So much.

I still can't think.

Why are the voices talking

Again

What do you want from me?!

It's so tiring.
I'm so exhausted.
I want to sleep and never wake up.
But I can't sleep.
And I'm never awake.
I'm just here.
Here.
Not alive or dead.
Just here
Here

I'm here.

If I disappeared
I wonder
If anyone
Would notice
Or care
At all

...

I need to talk to Moon again.
I'm beginning to loose my sanity.
I need to talk to Moon.