ACT I A Fully Dysfunctional Family (S.A.M.S opposites day AU)

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Content warning!
Mentions of attempted suicide
Repeated Cursing
Arguements

If you are sensitive to any of this, please read at your own risk. This is heavy angst.

[Moon's pov]

     Eclipse is sitting on the edge of my bed, eating popcorn
      Which is ironically the most normal thing I have seen this week, considering the fact Eclipse doesn't actually like popcorn.
      When it comes to situations like this, he is usually the one to freak out.
          And
Panic
    About what
Could happen.
         But not today.
He can tell how scared I am.
     So he is staying calm for both of us.

How, I wonder.

I can't describe this feeling.
It's like fire.
Everything burning up.
     Destroying
In elegant flames.

I am not the centre of this
      I need to stop being so fucking selfish.

     Eclipse glances toward me, as if he can read my thoughts.
     "Talk to me Moon. Brother." he gestures for me to sit next to him.

I don't move.
     His eyes.
They have seen far too much.

     "I know it hurts."

   I don't want to talk to him. Not now.
He can't feel my pain.
      Nobody can.
I button my lip and don't meet his gaze.
     I don't want him to see my weakness.
                    I don't want him to see me at all.
     He's my brother after all.
I need to be strong.
     For his sake.
I can't risk losing him too.

"You can't lock everything you feel away forever."
     "Why?" I snap, angrier than intended. He flinches away, and guilt immediately strikes through me.

I really am just like Sun.

"Moon.." he starts again
"No."
"You need some rest. Please. You haven't had a proper night's sleep in forever,"
"Can you just stop.."
"Please, Moon-"
"ECLIPSE SHUT THE FUCK UP! I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING TALK TO YOU.
YOU MAKE EVERYTHING WORSE."

Tears
Fall
Down.

But I continue.

"I NEED MY FUCKING SPACE ECLIPSE. PLEASE. Just leave me ALONE for once in your worthless little life. Or is that too hard for you? TOO MUCH TO ASK YOU WORTHLESS LITTLE PIECE OF SHIT?
YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND MY FUCKING FEELINGS, OK? SO LEAVE THE HELL OFF."

"I'm sorry."

"I'm so sorry.."

"I hate myself,
      right now.
Eclipse.
Please just go.
I need some time."

"Moon?"

"Do you really think that?"

"About me?"

"Moon?"