Curse of Cold harbor.

Unfortunate events

Her red eyes stared at me as she tried to find words to speak. A mixed expression of understanding and a hint of sadness graced her features. She tried to curve her lips in an understanding smile. But even a mudcrab could see through that futile attempt.

A sense of guilt overcame me, not for speaking the truth but because my brutal honesty always seemed to disappoint those around me.

'I mean, what could she expect of me, me caring for her deeply now? Won't take away the traumatic experiences in my past...' I thought while locking eyes with Serana, which she averted quickly.

She sighed softly. It sounded almost like a whimper.

Studying her reaction, I knew it was a hard pill to swallow for her, me being conflicted with being a vampire. Nonetheless, I couldn't lie to myself; I dreaded the time I had to feed one way or another. Or risk becoming a feral mindless beast. That prospect scared me to the core.

"I understand... I may not like you hate being a vampire, but I really can't blame you... The only thing I hope for is you not hating me for turning you." Serana said as she locked eyes with me again. Her eyes seemed to plead for affirmation.

I closed the distance between us as I embraced Serana.

"I would never hate you for that... You saved my life in more ways than one." I replied, looking at her while getting a strain of hair away from her pretty face.

"I know that, Dracar. I wished there was another way to save your life, and if there were, I would pick that over this..." She said softly as she caressed my face.

"I just hope you can come to peace with this regardless of your past. I hope you will see this as something positive in a way, and I know it sounds selfish, but I'm happy in a way... Happy that I won't have to see you die, happy that we will be together." She said in a soft apologetic tone.

Hearing her say that somewhat upset me, but in a way I kinda liked the prospect of spending endless hours with Serana. I was conflicted, conflicted between my feelings for her and my morals even though what happened in Cyrodill happened three years ago. My days with Serana alleviated the pain, somedays even made me forget all together.

A fleeting part of me still assumed she had me under her spell, that feeling however faded with every radiant smile she gave me.

With what happened in the soul cairn there was no doubt she had my best interest at heart. Unbeknownst to her I saw that her mother was trying to escape with her Serana however stayed and fought.

*which being intending to kill or hurt a person would go through such lengths to hurt someone.* I thought to myself as I
glanced over at the female vampire.

She met my eyes and gave me a small smile as she fidgeted with her hair.

"I know Serana, still I can't keep being a vampire... For multiple reasons you know that, I get how you are feeling a little part of me even wants it as well. But still I wouldn't be able to forgive myself...."I replied hoping Serana would see it from my perspective.

She seemed to understand my point of view as she nodded.

"Well, I hope if there is a way we can find it Dracar..." She replied, her voice was a bit stoic. I could tell she was having a hard time with it.

"We should get going." I replied deciding it was best for us to drop the subject for now.

As we were walking through the city its streets were bustling with life. Birds were chirping filling the streets with their beautiful song. A few kids were playing hide and seek, laughing and roughing eachother up. Their parents were talking, or shopping at the local market As the vendors appraised their wares.