Bible x Build

Part Three

Build's POV

"Have you seen or talked to Bible?"

"Umm, yeah. I see him almost every day in my last class, why?"

"I just...never mind, I'll see you later. Bye."

I hung the phone up as quickly as I could. That was not a conversation I wanted to get into with anyone, especially not Bas. He'd told me a few weeks ago that he liked me and I'd just blown him off, thinking that maybe if I held out a little longer that Bible would come to his senses and see me like I wanted. It was strange that he'd ask me to meet up all of a sudden. If he asked me out again I'd probably say yes. I didn't really have any kind of feelings for him, but I knew he'd treat me right and be devoted to me. I was still so ashamed of myself for that night with Bible. I didn't care what he said. He was just caught up in the moment and wanted to get a release. He could never truly mean what he'd said to me. When my final class of the day was over, I did what I could to avoid the normal path I knew Bible took and made my way to the curry shop. When I got there I looked around and didn't see Bas anywhere, I looked down at my phone, Bas still had a few minutes to get here. I got so absorbed in my thoughts I didn't even notice when Bible walked in and sat down in front of me.

"So, this is what it takes to get you alone so we can talk."

I snapped back to reality at the sound of his voice and jumped up to leave. I was immediately grabbed by the hand and forced to sit down in the chair closest to the window. Bible walked around the table and sat on the chair beside me. I pulled my hand out of his grasp.

"WHY ARE YOU HERE?" I yelled. " I MADE IT ABUNDANTLY CLEAR I DIDN'T WANT TO SEE YOU."

Bible looked around at everyone eyes on us and gave an apologetic wai and turned back to me, fire in his eyes. "I would appreciate it if you'd keep your fucking voice down. I know exactly what you told me, I'm here because I don't give a shit what you told me. We have things we need to discuss and since you made sure you avoided me in every possible way, I had to resort to deception to get you here."

I'd never had so much spoken to me through gritted teeth. "Bible, please don't make this a thing. It was a mistake, something that I wish had never happened, but we can't take it back. I just want to forget about it and move on with my life."

"I don't think it was a mistake, I think there is way more to it than you're saying and instead of confronting your feelings you're hiding them."

"Fine, if that's what you think, that's great, can I leave now?"

"NO! Damnit it Bui, why are you doing this."

Heads turned towards us again, this time it was me who gave an apologetic wai and glared back at him. "Keep your voice down." I said sarcastically.

"Do you really not care about that night? Is forgetting it what you truly want? Is forgetting everything we had before what you want? Do I truly mean so little to you?"

I could see the tears forming in his eyes. I'd knew that if we talked there would be tears, mostly mine, but I knew they'd be there. I had never wanted to hurt Bible in my entire life, but he'd hurt me so many countless times. I truly thought that night had been a dream. When I'd gotten in the shower and felt the water hit me, the realization of everything hit me like a truck. I knew, I wanted to tell him that I did care for him, that even though I hadn't thought it was real, that night was the most special night to me. I wanted to tell him that I'd never be able to forget it no matter how I'd try and he was never someone I'd want to forget, or any of our memories together. But I knew that telling him that was never going to be good for either of us. He had a list of conquest the length of my arm and I wanted someone who wasn't going to ever make me question their loyalty. Tears started rolling down his cheeks and I knew what he was taking my silence for. I decided I was going to respond but it was going to be the complete opposite of what I truly felt. I needed to make this break as clean as I could, no matter how painful.