Blade

The infirmary. Again.

Nico P.O.V

I could feel myself slipping away for a moment. Then all I knew was darkness. Then I could feel pain in my neck and wrists. Wasn't death meant to be painless? The ghost had told me once I was dead, I would feel nothing. They must have been wrong. But what if-? No, I couldn't still be alive. It was impossible. I had killed myself. I could feel my body waking up. I cracked my eyes open slightly. The first thing I saw was white walls. Then I saw a tall figure sitting down in the corner. They had curly blond hair. Will. I tried to sit up but my arms felt like they weighed the world. Then I realized where I was. The infirmary. I had failed. Will looked up at me. I could see his eyes were bloodshot and puffy from crying. He noticed that I was awake.

~~~~~~Once again line break because I'm lazy!!!~~~~~~

He let out a gasp. "Nico! Oh, my gods! Areyouok? areyouhurt? howdoyoufeel?" He said it in one breath and I could hardly understand him. "Will. slow down." my voice was croaky. Will's eyes glistened with tears. He wiped his face and knelt closer to my bed. "Nico. Why did you do it?" I wanted to pretend I didn't know what he was talking about. I couldn't. "I-I. I've had depression for a while now. When you left without telling me I thought t-that y-you didn't want t-to be with m-me anymore. That you wanted to get away from me." will look shocked. I could see how much he hated me for it. For doing this. "I'm sorry. I'll go.'' I tried to stand up but I fell the second I swung my legs over the side of my bed. Will gently pushed me back down. "Stay. rest.'' His voice was calm. I knew he must be disgusted with me right now. Horrible little Nico. The ugly little boy. The emo. The gay. That's what they all called me.

~~~~~~I think you know why I'm putting in a line break~~~~~~

I looked into his eyes. They were still wet. "Will. let me go. I don't want to be here." he shook his head. "No. Nico you need to stay. Heal." I started to struggle against his hand. Will put his other hand on my other shoulder. "Will!!! Let me go!!!" I considered shadow traveling but if I did, I would just pull him with me. Will looked over his shoulder. "Austin!! Kayla!! I need help here!" his siblings rushed in. Kayla helped hold me down and Austin held a needle. "Don't you dare solace!" I struggled harder. Will got closer to me. He bent down so his mouth was next to my ear. "Nico. it will be ok. Just calm down. Then Austin won't have to sedate you.'' I ignored his words and struggled harder. Will nodded to Austin and he plunged the needle into my arm. I screamed. Then I felt like I was falling.

Down.

Down.

Down.

Author time!
Hey guys. Was this a good chapter? Let me know in the comments. This story is really close to my heart because a few of my friends (myself included) have thought about doing what Nico tried to do. We are still trying to rid ourselves of these thoughts. I came close yesterday to ending it. I hope no one ever feels like this. It is horrible to go through and even though I'm not out of it yet it will leave me scared (emotionally and physically) for life. Please do not commit suicide and please do not self-harm. Message me if you need to talk. I promise I dont judge. I'm happy to talk (or listen) any time.

-mini Hermes