I have forgotten,
Unmedicated for only 5 days.
And yet these days feel like a neverending hell
I just feel so uncared for
Death seems so nice
But I must go on
Or else my dad will be left daughterless
And my mom would never have the opportunity to hug me.
My friends feel so distant
My family too
I don't want to cause pain
The way they do
Sometimes I lash out at my friends and family
I hate that I do that
Maybe I should be left alone
Even though feeling lonely is something I deal with all the time and it is terrible
I'm nothing but a burden
I've been neglecting my chores
I get called lazy
Which makes the guilt worse
Sometimes I laugh at something
When I realize I'm laughing
All the joy disappears
Music keeps me calm.
It's the one thing
that doesn't go wrong
I look at my read and delivered messages
Why does no one answer?
I feel worthless
I feel disposable
I think no one cares
I just want to be happy
I don't want to be dependent
On medication
Why is it so hard for me?
People have it worse
Yet I'm sulking over emotions
I'm pathetic
And all this because of five days
YOU ARE READING
The days go by
Non-FictionThis is all of the negative feeling and thoughts I have on a daily basis during a bipolar episode. I've been diagnosed with Bipolar II since the beginning of 2020. I'm 15 and have trouble taking my medicine on a daily basis. So sometimes I can accid...
