Depressed warbler

5

131 miles away (in cleveland)
Barry's pov
It's been a few days since I talked to bas. He says he's busy with school work, so I haven't had the chance to tell him that I will be visiting him soon. Maybe a surprise wouldn't be that bad. I've missed him very much. After mom's death and dad's arrest he was sent to Ohio, with both of us being very serious about studies and attendance we haven't met in 5 years. But now I have graduated high school and I will go to college in Ohio. Being smart made the perfect bully target but it also helped me graduate early.
This science fair in Cleveland was like a sign from god that it was time we met again. I would have told him but he isn't taking any of my calls.
It's 12 at night when I leave the hotel in a rental car, it's less than a 2 hour ride. It's a bit more than halfway through that I realise I have a voicemail from Sebastian. Huh I may have been a bit too invested in singing along the radio. I played the voicemail. "I sorry, I'm so sorry Barry" Sebastian's voice started, I couldn't help but notice his voice lacked it's usual delight when talking to me. Intact he sounded like he was dreading talking to me. "i don't want to leave you, you're the only thing that has kept me together for so long but this far from you i can't" with my breath caught in my throat I pray 'please don't let this be what I think it is' "this is the end for me. But please go on without me. I love you" "No no no no. This can't be happening" with that and tears streaming down my face I hit the gas exceeding the speed limit by way too much.
I'm at dalton in 5 mins I run to see there is no one at the reception to guide me to Sebastian's room. I know where the dorms should be from what bas described, so I run that way. I see 3 guys my age a bit further in the hallway. Probably students they should know where bas is. I run to them and they look at me, shocked for some reason.
Kurt's POV
We were heading towards Sebastian's room when we see him running towards us. His eyes are puffy and there are tear tracks on his face. Sebastian is not one to show weakness, he would change path instead of looking like this in front of us. So what happened to him. "Where is Sebastian's dorm?" Wait what, did he just ask where his dorm is and talked about himself in third person?. "Are you so drunk that you forgot your dorm number? And stop referring to yourself in third person. See I told you the slut is fine let's go back." Nick said with the last sentence pointed to me.
Before I could reply Sebastian had Nick pinned to the wall with a hand around his throat. His eyes held anger, no rage, white hot rage while Nick's held fear, for his life. I was too shocked to speak, Sebastian looked outright menacing, the amount of anger he was radiating was scary. Jeff shouted "Sebastian, what are you doing" he glared at Jeff, making him cower in fear. Then he made eye contact with Nick and said in a low threatening drawl " no one talks about Sebastian that way. No one." Wait what I'm confused again and by the looks of it so is Jeff " now tell me where Sebastian's dorm is before it's too late to save him." Huh?
I decided to play along " okay we'll show you your dorm, just leave Nick alone, Smythe" he looked at me and left Nick. We lead him to his dorm as that was where we were going anyway. Now that I have seen him that he is doing well I should leave but there is still something wrong the feeling still hasn't left. We arrive at the dorm and knock. A sleepy Thad opens the door, as his eyes land on Sebastian he mumbles 'freak' I guess with the way he said it was a reflex, what is even happening here, no wonder Sebastian said he knew everyone hated him.
Sebastian gritted his teeth and tightened his hand like he was about to hit Thad but then he pushed the Hispanic boy aside and entered the room with the yell of his own name. All four of us looked at each other confused. He then tried to open the bathroom door but it was locked. From the inside. How? Has Thad sneaked someone in his dorm?
Sebastian kicked the door open, the sound making us flinch. Looking inside he paled, and are those tears in his eyes. With a chant of no he went inside. We followed him, and what I saw was weird to say the least. Only one thought running through my head 'what the fuck'. There were two Sebastians, what's worse is one of them was in the bathtub with red tinted water. It was blood if I were to guess. I gasped with the realisation Sebastian2 had tried to commit suicide. And Sebastian 1 was here for him because he knew. But which one is the real Sebastian?
Barry's POV
I found him. In the bathtub bleeding to death. I took my phone and dialled 911. "911 what's your emergency" "a student at dalton academy has attempted suicide we need an ambulance" " okay sir I'm sending dispatch. Now, is this Bartholomew Henry Allen from central city?" "Yes" "sir can you answer a few questions about the students health?" "Yes" I decided before the medics came I should at least put pressure on his wounds so I put my phone on speaker and proceeded to do that. "How old is he" "17" "his name" "Sebastian smythe" "can you describe his injuries" "he has more than 15 horizontal and 2 vertical cuts on his arms"my voice breaks "Does the patient have a past with depression or a suicide attempt in his past?" "He was diagnosed with depression, anorexia and PTSD when he was 12." A gasp in the background, I ignore it and continue. "He does have a past with self harm but no. No suicide attempts" " okay the medics should be there soon." With the call ends and I realise I'm crying.
Sebastian stirs awake. His eyes open, unfocused, once they settle on me he says "Is this heaven? Wait no it can't be, is this hell?" The fact that He thinks he doesn't deserve heaven breaks my heart. He is then lost in the world of darkness again.