Your father.. | DNF Angst

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The third month with amber..
So much family time but also Dream often left the house at night with no note or without telling me why.

Me and dream finally made my own YouTube channel,I stream often and so did dream,he seemed off to be honest and we also don't share a bed anymore,I asked him why,he only told me it's because of all the editing he has to do, at the moment I'm the only one who's taking really care of amber,dreams just there,the only person he actively talks to is Sapnap,but also sapnap won't tell me what's up with clay,I noticed that clay bought a rope a few days ago. I asked him what he wants to do with it the only answer he gave was "maybe I'm gone build amber a swing at the tree we found" we also never ate together and he didn't liked talking about me and him to our fans, many of his followers followed me also now and I decided I also gone avoid our relationship ship online now..

It got very dry between us and I thought he was taking to other man or woman,I asked him about it and he laughed and called me crazy,one time he said "are you going fully mad now? I proposed to you and now your excusing me of cheating?!" Me and him didn't talk for the rest of the day.

We had a big fight "well you never did anything about it!" I looked overwhelmed at him "WHAT? I didn't do ANYTHING?! I always took great care of you,gave you LOVE and I was always there for you in your deepest times,Clay you know how much I care for you.." I had tears stream down my eyes "yeah ok George." I was shocked "what is your problem now?!" He turned back to me and pointed with his finger at me "you don't know how I feel! YOU CANT KNOW! Your not me!YOU CANT HELP!" He screamed and I shook my head and flipped him off "you know what? Fuck you. I really love you clay but your just being a asshole right now." He looked at me with hate full but also regret filled eyes "geo-" I shook my head and laughed "no let's talk about it when your actually sober and have clear thoughts." I walked to MY room and he walked to HIS room.

The next day, I was in the kitchen preparing Ambers day care food "dad..?" I looked down,yeah amber learned to talk at a very young age,she still has some problems but you can communicate with her "yeah honey..?" She hugged my knee "why did you and dad fight.. and when can we do family cuddling again..I miss it so much.." I looked at the knife in my hand "you know me and your dad just have different views on different things,if we wouldn't fight it wouldn't be real love baby.." she had tears in her eyes "b-but you fight l- fight so often.." she completely broke down and dream entered the kitchen at that moment "what happened?!" I looked at him "you and dad fight so- so much!" He looked down "sorry baby I'm just tir-" I gave him a look "yeah he's tired." He nodded and amber didn't believe us "we don't even cuddled as family anymore! I'm mostly at uncle saps and Karl's!" She ran off "great" I turned away and put her food in the fridge "George-" I stopped him "no clay,I'm sorry but I'm so sick of your excuses right now.I love you so so much but it's also so exhausting for me,I'm worrying about you 24/7! We shared a room,we shared everything but your pushing me and your daughter away,it hurts,it fucking hurts." He had tears in his eyes and broke down on the floor "shit love" I sat down and hugged him "what's up,talk baby" he couldn't breathe "I-uh- the- the voices are so loud-i a- I can't" I hugged "cmon let's cuddle and talk everything out ok.. I don't wanna fight with you.." he nodded and we cuddled "I'm so so sorry" I brushed my hand through his hair "talk love,talk." He cried so hard "I'm so sorry for drinking and pushing you both away,but I'm so so so exhausted,I can't anymore,I'm so sick of life right now,I can't i fucking can't" I kissed his face and lisps "I love you so much clay. Always remember that please..?" He nodded and we cuddled on the couch and shared so many kisses "please come back to our room.." he smiled and nodded "yeah I will" he kissed me and we continued to talk about it."

Maybe it's just the calm for the real storm..

In love,
Dad❤️