The Mafia Boss has a dirty little secret. BxB

31 - Well, It fucking worked

I enjoyed the comforting warmth. He was releasing a scent that I could only describe as addicting and sweet. My arms were wrapped around his body and he rested his face on my chest.

He looked so peaceful sleeping right next to me, that it calmed me. I looked up at the clock it was almost 7pm, we needed to get home before 8 or else Liam would stay up waiting for us.

Tae shuffled a little bit in his sleep and I knew he was about to wake up. So I closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep. Tae snuggled closer to me and I felt his eyes on me.  I could feel his eyes trailing my face and body. I resisted the urge to smile as he checked me out.

" Take a picture, it'll last longer." My eyes flew open to met his blushing face.

" Morning." He muttered, giving me a small smile. I leaned in and rested my head against his. Our lips were inched close together and our noses pressed together. I noticed the way his eyes rested on my lips, so I placed a soft kiss on his cheek.

He blushed and I couldn't help but snuggle him closer to me.  " I wish we could stay like this until tomorrow morning but you know Liam. He won't sleep without you by his side." I reminded him as my hands reached to play with his messy black hair.

  " Since when did you become so affectionate?" Tae questioned and I gave him a menacing smile.

" Since you came into my life. " I joked but I couldn't help but wonder how weird the circumstance we met under were. It's not like I thought he was a spy, my heart trusted him too much. Maybe he was just under wrong circumstances, the only way to find out was to ask him. I wanted to know things about him what he liked and didn't like. His life and how he became this addicting person in front of me.

" Why did you break into my mansion?"  I questioned. Tae's expression completely changed in a split second.

" What?"

" You can fight really well, you had a camera hidden in the necklace you were wearing. All that would lead a normal person to believe you're a Spy. " Tae froze, leading me to actually worry about the fact that he may be a spy.

His scent had grown anxious as I tried to analyze why. Maybe I made him uncomfortable, accusing someone of being a spy would put a normal person on edge.

" Sorry, that was a stupid question." Tae slowly nodded.

" How about your past? " He froze again.  I realized I was really hitting him in all the wrong places. Plus it was stupid of me to ask for his past, when I should've been the one telling him my past. Explaining how I became the heartless creature I am today. It was something about his scent that made me feel like it was okay to b open.

" I'll tell you mines." I offered. That seemed to make him ease up but made me tense up.

" I don't know where to start." I mumbled putting a little distance between Tae and I. He didn't say anything about my sudden movement, but I knew he knew I was uncomfortable.

" How about childhood? " He smiled reaching for my hand. His fingertips wandered over my hand before clasping and holding on tight. I squeezed his hand and stared at our intertwined fingers.

" Well, for as long as I can remember I've always been surrounded by drugs and gun fights. I know it scares some kids but for me it was like second nature."

" I can relate to that. " Tae whispered and I didn't look at him. I didn't want frighten him away by asking him about his past. But his words implied something that I didn't like, at all.

  " I saw a lot of bleeding and suffering. Ironically the only thing that scared me, was my own suffering. My father was one hell of a trainer. He took away the things I grew attached to and he made me suffer, just so my soul would fuel on hatred. Well, It fucking worked." I sarcastically said the last part causing Tae to tightly hold onto my hand.

I finally looked up and met his eyes. We shared a moment before he spoke. "What kind of things did you grow attached to? " He asked as he reached for a piece of hair on my face.

" My mother and Belle."  His eyes widened and I chuckled. I didn't know why his reaction was so funny to me. Maybe it was because  I'd cried too much to care anymore. He tugged the shred of hair behind my ear.

" See my father had to do what he did. I trusted people way to easily.  "I started to play with his hair as my mind emptied.

" I remember I had this one particular kid I was attached To.  He was the kindest person I'd ever met and I ..." Tae smiled to reassure me and that's when it clicked.

" It's just now crossing my mind that I might've liked him." The words felt so foreign off my tongue but nothing about me felt foreign anymore.

" I think I fall in love or maybe I just think I was in love with him because I'd never had a real friend... We were inseparable. But he had many weakness and imperfections that people easily used to ostracize him."

" He made himself so easy to tease, he didn't hide his tears and discomfort. Which made him a popular choice for bullying. "

"I protected him whenever I could but most the time, I'd just hide with him in the bathrooms or on balcony's. But..." Tae must've realized what I was about to say because he spoke next.

  " You said your father took away  the things you grew attached to." I couldn't help but smile a painful smile.

" Yeah but I killed Henry myself. " Tae's eyes widened and he took his hand away from mines.

" What!"

" I forgot to mention he kissed me once and admitted he had a crush on me."

" How'd you respond ?"

" I laughed and told him he should stop ostracizing himself even more."

" Why'd you say that ?"

" I just wanted to protect him. He was
in the wrong crowd and place to be himself. But he didn't care about that and he came out. My father caught word of it and ..."

" He kidnapped him and told me to kill him. It would serve as a great lesson to me to not befriend people who will ostracize me. "

" I couldn't bring myself kill him, so my father decided to wait until the ball. He stopped the music, shone the light on me, and then the guards brought him in."

" He told everyone that I would make a great mafia leader because I was willing to kill friends who were willing to turn themselves into pathetic traitors. Everyone was staring at me, our enemy gangs and my father."

" He was giving me an option. Either to refuse to kill him and ostracize myself. Or kill him and show everyone I'm a strong and independent leader who shouldn't be messed with..."

" Then you killed him?"

" I had to, everyone in that room was the last person I should've been showing weakness to. Saying no would show them all how easy it was to befriend me and trick me. They were staring at me like lions waiting to prance on their prey. My father had also hinted that he wanted me to take over the throne after him. Which he usually never did, he just compared me to his bastard son."

" So I killed him. After that he purposely put homophobic people around me so I'd fuel with hatred. Like I said before it fucking worked. "

" How ?" Tae questioned making me shake my head.

" Do you know what it's like to see people harass and torture others over something as trivial as that?"

" Yes, but from the victims point of view." Tae admitted causing my body to tense.

" You already know most of my past from my friend but..." I cupped his face and held him tenderly.

" You don't have to tell me if you don't want to." I gave him a smile and placed a kissed on his cheek. He returned the gesture and smiled.

"I.. want to."

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Man that was a long ass chapter. I thought the back story would only take up about 1chapter but apparently it's now 2. I hate it when I plan on writing something very short and it ends having to be dragged out, safe to say I don't like surprises in my writing. Can't say the same about surprising my readers. I want y'all to suffer that good pain. 😤

Feb 4, 2023. 8:30 am