The Mafia Boss has a dirty little secret. BxB

34 - ' kiss you more gently'

As soon as I heard my phone's ringtone, I snatched the phone and quickly swiped right. I put the phone against my ear and my heart beat decided to spike up.

" I'll cut the small talk but tomorrow; we will strike." A familiar voice said; my father's bastard son. My heart dropped and I regretted not checking to make sure it was Ethan's number. The last person I wanted to speak to was him.

" Ok." I replied, which was so out of character for me because I'd usually have a snarky response ready to go. Thankfully Ethan hung up after my visible lack of interest. But the damage was already done.

What was I doing pursuing someone when everyone I have had in the past ended up dead? I wasn't a normal person with a normal job, so why was I pursuing a normal person? A person that will more than likely end up dead because of me. I shriverd at my own selfishness because the thought of letting him go was also painful.

I would protect Tae and Liam with my life. It was selfish, yes, but I wouldn't let them go and I certainly wouldn't let them get hurt. I wasn't a kid that my father could boss around anymore and soon enough I'd take over the Mafia, giving me the perfect way to protect them. I was so engrossed in my thoughts I almost didn't hear the phone ring again.

I looked at the caller Id and saw Ethan's name. I gripped the phone tightly and considered hanging up. I was being selfish. He ran away from me because I hurt him. Not because of the Mafia, but because of me. I was the problem and  I had to fix it.

I answered the call and pressed the phone against my ear. I heard a familiar but distant sound of rambling.

" Yes he is, why wouldn't he? " My heart fluttered open hearing the familiar voice. I could admittedly tell he was talking about me. But Tae's voice sounded distant and broken. My heart began to hurt  because I couldn't tell if he was crying or just sniffling.

" Tae, the phone." Ethan interrupted, Tae just seemed to ramble on.

" I can't pretend to be fucking normal when I'm not. I hate it but I'm not." My eyes widened and my chest began pounding in this unsatisfying motion. I did have my suspicions that he was hiding something and I was right. I wanted to tell him I wasn't normal either. Him not being normal wouldn't change my feelings for him.

" Tae."  Ethan tried again.

" I don't want to be anyone els-else's problem. " His voice cracked and I realized he really crying. Why was he talking down to himself? He was the nicest and most caring person I knew. I didn't like the way he was talking to himself.  He needed to understand how great he was and that I was the problem. I sighed and took a deep breath.

"..I really meant it when I said I liked you." Well I didn't directly say it, but I implied it. I implied it because I was too afraid to say it. There was silence on the other end of the side.

" And nothing will change that. " I felt my heart flutter at my own confession as I waited for his response. Knowing, Tae his face would be bright red and his eyes would be sparkling.

" Ethan …  How ?!" I could picture Tae glaring at his friend.

" I'm sorry, but your boyfriend insisted on talking to you. "Ethan defended.

" That's not my boyfriend."  Tae stated but his voice came out low.

" That's not what he said. " Ethan's response was met with further silence. How I wish I was there to see his face because my own face was completely red.

" Tae, please give me your address." I asked, and again more unbearable silence.

" Fine."  Tae finally said and I smiled.

" You don't have to-" Tae interrupted Ethan.

" It's fine." Tae finally said.

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  Droplets started to fall from the sky as I stared out of the window of my car. It was a terrible neighborhood, the type of neighborhood where druggies surely lived and gangs were prevalent. The location he had sent me was an old abandoned house, so it's no wonder I couldn't find where he lived. He wasn't supposed to be living there.

    I could sense that he was near, I had this overwhelming feeling and longing to go and see him. Well not just see him. But to also hug him and touch him.

I hadn't brought an umbrella but that didn't stop me from exiting the car once I caught sight of him. He was standing behind a fence getting drenched by the rain while he looked at the house in front of him.

  I couldn't stop myself and the urge to have him close got stronger. I ran towards him and he turned around to face me. He opened the fence and chuckled. Showing off his cute dimples that I was planning to smoother in kisses once I reached him.

  Once I was within 2 feet of him I wrapped my arms around his waist and he wrapped his arms around my neck. He still fit so perfectly in my arms. I studied his face and the puffy eyes were proof enough that he was definitely crying. I moved a strand of hair from his face to tuck behind his ear and felt butterflies because of the contact.

  I leaned down and kissed him, not caring that we'd probably get sick after this. Our lips connected as water trailed down our bodies. It was cold but he was warm. From the hands clasping on my neck, his lips, and the way our bodies pressed up against each other ignited the sparks of electricity. His mouth was the warmth I was searching for and my heart floated because this was the intense feeling of butterflies I was craving

He pulled back for air but I continued to kiss him. I wouldn't let him go this time.I smothered the part of his face where his dimple usually was. He started laughing and soon the laughing was mixed with tears that trailed down his face. I tried my best to gently wipe the tears and water away before giving him  one more kiss. I leaned my forehead against his and stared into his puffy eyes.

" I shouldn't have pushed you away."  I admitted, because I couldn't believe how many times I had managed to hurt the person in front of me. All because I was afraid, like a coward.

" Come back home and not just for Liam." Tae had this look of uncertainty in his eyes. Who wouldn't, I was telling him I wouldn't push him away again while also refusing to admit I wanted him. I caressed his soft skin under my hand, feeling all my walls fall down.

" For me… I'll take you out on real dates." I felt my heart pound because this was my confession. I connected our lips for a brief moment before letting my lips trail down his skin.

" Ace." He whispered in this broken tone.

" I'll kiss you more gently. " I let a finger trail his jawline as I trailed his neck.

" I won't push you away again so please." I licked the skin around his neck and his body reacted.

" Ace-ah." Tae pushed me away and I smiled because I had missed that blushing face of his.

"It's not you, it's me."

" Don't you dare say that, " I growled and he shriverd.

" Can you handle my past? " I scoffed at the question and traced his lips with my finger.

" I can handle all of you."

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I feel like almost everyday I forget to update now. 😭. There's two more drafts left for this book that I need to edit but I'm to lazy to got on with it.  Hopefully I find my motivation before Friday.

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