Secret between us

Damn it

LENA POV:

I gotta get out of here, I can't let my sister see me.

I'm hurt, she hurt me. 

All my family did.

It has been two years since I don't know much about Lisa, all I know is that she broke up with Jonas, her boyfriend.

I don't know anything about the people that despised me that I once called my family...my mom, my dad, my brother, my other sister....fuck.

I wish things were so much different, but since I came out my parents kicked me out of the house...they gave me no money and I had to find a job cleaning cars. Thank God I'm a photographer and I found a way to make good money with my passion. 

I got kicked out when I was 17, and now I'm 21.

I don't know what would happen if Lisa found out I live in her town now, we used to live in Backnang before.

Maybe she'd ignore me...or tell our dad and he'd say awful things to me like a couple of years ago.

-"We want you out of this house now Lena! Don't you understand?, you fell into temptation!, now you're a sinner, and a disgusting human being! we don't want you here anymore"- He demanded angry, screaming.

-"But dad, I got no place to go!!! I'm 17, I can't leave!"- I said crying.

-"I don't give a fuck, can't you see?...why can't you be like your sister Lisa?, she's kind, feminine, beautiful and look at you!! you don't even know who you are!" - He screamed.

I looked at my twin, waiting for her to stand up for me. 

But all she did was stay quiet and watch.

-"Lisa!!! do something!" - I said to her, begging.

-"I'm so sorry Lena. We can't stay with a homosexual." -she replied.

That broke me.

I'm broken. 

Coming out was the worst thing I could ever do, even though I expected my family to support me...it was obvious they were gonna hate me for being who I am.

Damn it. 

I drive and drive trying to get these ideas off my head.

you're worthless...

you're a piece of shit....

ich möchte sterben....

I brush it off and grab my phone to play a song.

My "road trip" playlist is still playing, but now I'm listening to Waterfall by Disclosure.

-"Won't you please pour you're loving over me?"- I sing...

What a day....

This girl...Alex. She looks very kind...I mean, she's respectful, cheerful, and kind of shy.

Cute.

And she's also very pretty... I like her light brown hair, and buttoned-up nose, her full lips and her vibe...She has to be queer.

I mean...She behaves very politely but she has a masculine vibe, and I'm here for it.

But too much thinking about girls. I  end up heartbroken all the time. 

Nope, lena. No girls.

ALEX POV:

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA