Secret between us

Life's unfair

LENAS POV:

Damn it.

What the hell was that all about?

Lisa and Alex...living in the same house?
You've got to be fucking kidding me.

It hurts me that Alex didn't consider me as her first option, she chose to live with Lisa instead.

Fuck.

I'm jealous.

Alright, maybe I'm not thinking straight. But she knows that me and Lisa don't get along at all, and she still decided not to tell me the truth...after all we've been through together.

I wanna tell her I'm mad.
I wanna tell her I'm fucking pissed about this.

But I can't.

First of all I think that I'm more worried about the fact that she chose her over than me.

And...well....

I don't know.

Maybe it makes sense, maybe she's mad at me or something...or maybe she doesn't trust me enough because we're not even girlfriends.

She's just a friend after all...isn't she?

Ugh.

I drive as I listen to the music she has showed me and clench my jaw as I think about Alex.

ALEX POV:

-"Lisa, I'm so sorry for Lena's behavior...." - I tell her, once we're inside,

-"It's alright Al..." - She says, lookin down. - "But I thought you were single."

Oh.

-"Well...um...basically I am. Lena and I aren't girlfriend and girlfriend." - I confess.

It's so weird how we know so much about each other, and all the moments we have spent together...And we're still nothing but friends.

Does she even like me that way?

I mean...maybe she's just sexually attracted to me...And maybe she likes another girl. I have no idea.

-"Right. But you like her, don't you?" - Lisa asks, looking dead serious.

No smile this time.

-"Yeah. Of course I like her...But I don't even know if she likes me like that." - I say.

-"Haven't you guys fucked?!? She must like you. I mean...Would you have sex with someone you aren't interested in?" - She points out.

-"Maybe you're right, yes. But...maybe it's just physical attraction, and maybe someone else has her heart." - I say.

-"And maybe you're overthinking , Alex. I'm sure she's into you, I can see it in her eyes. And even though me and my sister don't talk...I know her." - She says, putting on a weak smile. -"But hey...don't pressure yourself okay? You can always meet other people in case you're right."

-"you're not helping." - I tell her and she laughs.

-"Oh, come on...She's not the only girl in the world. Someone else could like you, and you don't even realize." - She says, out of nowhere, looking straight into my eyes.

-"Yeah, I suppose." - I answer and we walk upstairs.

We say nothing else as I go back inside my new room.

I lock the door and lay down as I sigh dramatically.

My phone is right above my pillow.

I check it and i see 9 missed calls of Lena.