Captain Swan Shots

It's In His D.N.A

I sat alone on my king sized bed in my room. I could hear my mother downstairs with my father discussing why I was like this; they didn't know. There were empty bottles of countless types of alcohol scattered around my room. The gold silken curtains were half burnt from my countless fireballs being thrown at it. My mirror shattered to a million pieces from being punched repeatedly. Sitting at the foot of my bed, I starred out the window in pain and anger as I saw the Jolly Roger sitting quietly by the docks.

With salted tears streaming down my face, I grabbed the black leathered book from my bedside table, flipping through countless pages. He gave me this journal, and he said to write every moment I had with him. The good, and the bad. For the past few months, it was only the bad. With a loaded gun sitting to my right, a switchblade to my left, and a noose sitting on the cold wooden floor under my bed, I regretfully opened the journal, turning to the first page.

January 18
8:47am: Today I was going to surprise Killian with a kiss at breakfast, but he wasn't in bed. Whenever that happened, he was either in the kitchen, the bathroom, or with Henry at the park. So I decided to go to Granny's for a cup on my favourite drink; hot cocoa with cinnamon.

10:34am: My mother begged me to visit her friend Aurora to show her around the town properly and teach her how to things work around her, so I went.

10:42am: I was walking up the stairs towards Aurora's apartment, until I saw Killian waiting by her door hold a large bouquet or roses. Hiding in the corner, I saw Aurora answer the door, and he presented her the flowers. Aurora looked quite happy, so, she kissed him.

12:43pm: They've been in there for two freaking hours, and I was pretty damn well pissed. Dammit...

12:53pm: I saw Killian walk out with a dark grin on his face. His hair was messed up, his vest was only half buttoned up, and his pants weren't even zipped up all the way. To make it worse, he had a hickey on his neck and lipstick everywhere on his face. I immediately left, crying until I fell asleep in my bed; alone.

I cried out as I finished reading, ripping the page out, and burning it in my hands to ashes. Tears falling again, a single tears fell onto the next page, and to break my heart again, I read it.

February 7
5:28am: I know it's early, but the last time I wrote in my journal was very depressing, so I'll try to write something great for today.

8:32am: Well, the day's going great so far! I have to pick Henry up from Regina's place, I don't see anything wrong with that!

9:06am: After I picked up Henry and dropped him off with my mom and dad, I wanted to go back to Regina's place to ask if she knew a spell that could force people the truth. I know I wanted to write something good for today, but I want to know why he's been cheating on me with Aurora out of all people!

9:24am: Regina's front door wasn't locked, so maybe I just forgot to close it when I left with Henry. Although, that wasn't what happened at all. Regina's office door was locked, but even when working she'd never lock it. So curiosity got the best of me, and peeked through the keyhole.

9:26am: Regina and Killian were having a conversation, but I couldn't hear what it was about since they were at the back of the room. She was close by him, a bit too close. Maybe an inch apart. They were both smiling, and then it happened. It was too much for me, and it was too fast. They kissed. After Aurora, know this?! I was nauseous, and felt like throwing up. I ran out, full of tears, and cried for hours in my room again; alone.

Worse than the first page, I cried, but this time, screaming came after. In a sudden burst of sound, I heard my father banging against the door, "Emma! Emma open up!! Please!! What's going on?!" In anger, I let out a blood curling scream, "Get the fuck out!!" After a mere half second of silence, a gasp was heard, as well as a pair of boots walking down the stairs without a word.

I was by myself, locked up in my own room for a few months, four months at least. Day in and day out, drinking away my misery, only leaving for the bathroom and for food which was usually four in the morning. It was only around three in the afternoon, the sun was still burning and shining through my window. I don't understand, why did he do it? He said he'd protect me. He said he traded his ship for me, yet it's right outside my window. What's worse, is that I meant it when I said, "I love you too." Who ever knew that those four words could mean nothing to him? Especially when he said it himself.

I finally made my decision. It had to be quick, the pain would have to leave my body as soon as it's done. I stuck out my right hand, reaching for it's trigger. It's metal was cold, and unused. Even with the pain increased dramatically, it would end faster than a heartbeat.

He cheated on my with Aurora, and the on Aurora with Regina. Who's next? My father?! With a breathless sigh, I pressed it against my head, ready to say goodbye to this world where the Saviour getting a happy ending wasn't in the job description. A world, where my pirate wasn't made evil; he was born. His father was as much as him. I guess, it's in his D.N.A.

"Goodbye. I hope you'll know why I did it all, but even after all I've seen..."

One...

Last...

Breath...

"...I still love you."

No scientists or biology; it's obvious when he's holding me. It's only natural I'm so affected. My heart won't beat again if I can't feel him in my veins. No need to question! I already know! It's in his D.N.A...