The Rose - Solby story - M-preg book

The Amusement Park - 13

(This part is made because I got an idea from the amusement park video, from Elton's channel TFIL)

⚠️WARNING⚠️  mention of self-harm, and stupid thoughts.

Colby's pov:

It has been a few days since I've been feeling all down. I am not that sad anymore, but it's still sad to think that I just lost a baby.

I wish I didn't, but can't do anything about other than being a little bitch about it.

I was laying down cuddling on the couch with Sam, as Sam got a phone call. He went up from the couch. "Sorry Colbs gotta take this call." "Who's it from." I ask as he takes the call and goes to our room.

I was just sitting there sad on the couch. I felt like I was at the same spot as these few days ago.

I felt like crying. I don't know, I think it's because I feel jealousy, creeping up on me.

I'm such an giant pussy. I keep on crying even if nothing happens, now I started crying out of nowhere.

I heard footsteps coming closer. "Hey baby. What's wrong?! Why are you crying?" He asked as I started zoning out.

"..." that's what I heard as I zoned out, staring at the couch down.

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Mention of self harm, and stupid thoughts start here!

He doesn't really fucking care about you!

His in love with someone else bitch!

Why can't you see that pussy ass!

You are fucking ugly! You should just kill yourself worthless motherfucker! The voice growled at me. "Stop! Please stop!" I yelled banging myself on my head.

"Wait- what are you saying?" Sam asked very worried, looking down at Colby.

"Nothing. -I -uh nothing. I have to go to room." I mumbled looking down, while I almost sprinted to our room, and went into the bathroom.

I got into the bathroom, and took out a razor blade. (They have those since we get beard. I don't have to explain, you know why)

I placed the blade on my wrist, and almost got cut, but Sam came to the rescue. "What are doing Colby?!" He asked yelling at me. "Nothing." I said starting to sob again.

I continued to talk, "I- uhm -I t-thought you d-didn't care a-about me." I stuttered looking up at Sam once in a while. "Well I do, if I didn't then I would've left. But no seriously I love you so much." He said making me sob into him.

"I love you too." I said as I looked up at him. "But really, what made you try to do it again?" He said making me nervous.

"I- it's uhm- t-these v-voices in m-my head. T-they tell m-me to j-just k-kill myself. And t-that I'm f-fucking w-worthless." I said tearing up once more, as I also saw Sam beginning to spill a tear.

"I'm so sorry for you COLBY. But don't kill yourself please, just for me. I love you so much." He said as I hugged him tightly, like if I ever stopped then he would've leave.

"I love you Sammy." I said looking at him, and then kissing him on the lips.

"By the way, Corey called and asked us if we wanted to join them, visiting a amusement park? Would you mind coming?" He said holding up my head with his hand.