Flowers of Solitude

Chapter 1

Sydie's POV

It was my 18th birthday and we were drunk that time. Deither have been my closest friend hanggang sa pagtungtong ko ng kolehiyo.

He was a playboy type pero nung niligawan niya  ko at naging kami ay tumino ito at naging maalaga sakin.

I didn't know all of that will vanished dahil sa isang makasalanang gabi.

Nagising nalang ako na walang saplót at katabi niya. I tried waking him up but he was so drunk last night that he couldn't get back his own state. Halos manginig ako ng maalala ang ginawa naming kagabi.

What the fuck Sydie?

You gave up your virginity as easy as that. Sinubukan kong pakalmahin ang sarili ko at may tiwala naman ako kay Deither , isa pa at wala pa namang resulta.

But things are getting complicated nang hindi nako datnan sa araw ko. Even though I was too horrified to see the result , I still tried the inevitable pregnancy test after I release my urine inside.

I was cold as my eyes watered when I see the two red lines.

Confirmed.

I'm pregnant.

But I just turn legality.

Hindi pako handang maging ina.

“ Shit , patay talaga ko kay Mama pag nalaman niya toh” I mumbled.

Those thoughts were the same thoughts also from the perspective of the baby inside her tummy.

Knowing her teenage mother might abort her.

“Deither buntis ako.” ang kaninang malapad na ngiti niya mula sa pagbati saking pagdating ay halos maglaho nang ipinagtapat ko iyon sa kaniya.

Nagsimula akong mamawis nang makita ang takot na reaksyon sa mukha nito.

“S-sydie , are you kidding right?”

“ Do you think I would joke around this kind of personal thing to me?”

“What the fuck , Sydie. Ang akala ko ba ay nag iingat ka sa mga bagay nato?”

“What?Ako pa? hindi ba dapat ikaw kasi maraming beses mo na tong ginawa? Why didn't you coat your manhood before entering me that night?”

“ Sydie ,fuck , this is wrong! Kung ganon bakit hindi mo sakin pinaalala? I bedded countless woman at halos lahat sila ay umiinom ng pills to take care of theirselves.”

I can't believe him.

“So sinasabi mong kasalanan ko lang to , Deither  ganon ba?”

“No , but it's still your body and not mine. Ikaw ang maapektuhan at hindi ako. Besides , I was on my drunk state last night . I couldn't almost remember na may nangyari nga sating dalawa. At ang tagal na ng birthday mo bakit ngayon mo lang sinabi. Sabihin mo nga , ako ba talaga ang ama ng batang yan?”

I couldn't contain his words anymore so I slapped him hard while I'm turning violet and livid, i wanted to cry but i chose not to, I don't want him to think I'm weak by just getting pregnant

Hinawakan niya ang pisngi niyang namula habang nakanganga at hindi makapaniwala sa ginawa kong biglaang sampal  sa kaniya.

He fixed his self and utter his response to me.

“Fine , I'll give you money just to abort that child Sydie , masyado pa kong bata para maging ama. I have plans and you have too , kalimutan nalang natin na may nangyari satin.”