Distorted Affection

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She was beautiful, my first thought as I gazed into her brown eyes, they glistened and sparkled and it all felt unreal. Our lips were inches apart, coming closer. My heart beating faster than it's humanly possible. She was enchanting. The way she made me feel wasn't simple, too complicated to even imagine or put into words, so twisted and big it didn't even feel like something a human brain could capture. Our lips less than a second from locking I hear a loud ringing in my ear, I get stunned as she fades away and my eyes flash open. Oh yeah, I'm at school.

Everyday was the same, I wake up at 7:03 exactly, look in the mirror and think about my gross face, take on my clothes, brush my teeth, take an apple, eat half of it while walking to the bus stop, throw it in the trash and get on the bus. Sit in the middle of the bus, on the right side alone by the window, go to class, sit right in the middle and not talk to anyone, have a peanut butter and jelly sandwich with 2 sips of water, get up and continue class, finish school and take the bus home, go to my room and read, write, watch shows and think about... her. My love, my life my everything... she was always on my mind,  everything I could ever need. I saw her in me and in everything happy, when I was full of joy I felt her. This girl she was my happiness, she was my soulmate...!! But.. she wasn't real.