Finding My Inner Badass

The Truth

It's been 2 days sence my dogs arrived here but truthfully the dogs except the trained dobermans and Mountain Max found a family with different MC men and well for the gaurd dobermans they now just protect the compound Max didn't approve of them getting my love haha and in thoues 2 days my uncle hasn't talked to me but a hey here or there. So I've decided that I should talk to him I walk into his office " uncle are you relay that mad that the dogs are here I know I didn't give you much of a chance and" he interrupts me giving me a big hug " no hunny I'm not mad at you that Mountain of a dog" " you mean Mountain Max " he chuckles " that's what you named him hu suits him well anyways without him you wouldn't" he pausess I look up at him and I see a single tear run down the right side of his face. I know somethings wrong uncle tell me pleas "hunny I haven't told you everything about the day your dad died" I pull out of his grasp. I'm confused but mostly angry I go over that day evey single fucking day and now, now there's more to the dam story I look at him with angry " he gave me this letter to give to you Lucy" I take it no knowing if I wanted to even read it " read it Lucy, I got a similar letter that day getting the similar information pleas read I'll step out come find me if you have questions " with that he gose to leave " Deno why why wait this long he's been gone for two years why now" he sighs and looks to the ground " hunny the news I got in my letter shocked me just read the letter" " what If I don't want to read this dam letter" he shakes his head and leaves closing the door behind him "AHHHHH" I scream I'm frustration after 30 minutes of staring at the letter on my uncles desk I final tear open the dam latter not even caring if I tore the letter it's self
Dear Lucy
Befor I say what I need to say. I love you with all my heart you are my daught no matter what. You see I grew up in an MC and a younge age I messed up pretty bad with my father his name was Levi but everyone knows him as Logger. I didn't know how to fix my mistakes let alone my relationship with your grandfather. So at age 18 I insisted in the army being parred with my bestfriend your uncle Deno Davis. You see when leave came around I dint want to go home to my father so Deno took me home with him where I met his 4 year old son who lost his mother and his girlfriend your mother and one very drunken night we both made mistakes she thought I was Deno and I thought she was some girl names samantha. The next moring we agreed to forget about that drunk, mistaken night. 1 month whent by and she broke up with Deno as she was pregnant. Pregnant with you hunny. Your mother was 90% sure you where mine we fell in love and married but when you where born we did a DNA test turns out I'm not your father sweetheart and I'm sorry. Your mother and me made the worst decision in our lives and lied to you and Deno and raise you as our child. I don't think we where ever going to tell you either the truth but I vowed to myself that I would not take this to my grave. I love you hunny I love you so dam much your are my daughter no matter what Lucy.

I wipe my tears away fearcly not ok with crying over my so called father lying to me my hole dam fucking life. I storm to my room angr, angrier then I've ever been in my life. I type the pass code in to my safe room entrance running to open the safe in holding my most valuable item a handgun given to me by a freind at the MC I stayed with not long ago her name was Tina she went through similar things when she was my age giving me the greatest advice of my life so far " You Lucy are one fisty younge lady with shadows following behind you, be the girl you want to be. Become the women you want to be know matter what. You should no longer be scared be the shotgun blazing thought life. " so I'm doing it I've face my shadows. They no longer follow me with bad but follow me showing me that I am strong. I put my gun in my waste band of my pants and storm down stairs finding Deno I storm twords him turning him facing me I hit the glass out of his hand " you fucking knew this hole fucking God dam time, that was fucking 2 years ago you fucking pussy. I could.... have been a dead rotting boddy on the floor as my brain matter showers the dam houes I lived in next to my mother and her splattered brains next to mine" I yell barely keeping my temper. Right away Deno puked all over the floor " AHHHHHHH" I yell running out the compound doors running and running as fast as my body could take me. After about an hour of running I stop to catch my breath as I hear feet running twords me I turn fast seeing Mountain Max sighing in relief I hug him landing on my knees with a thud. Looking Max in the eyes I say " I'm going to keep going boy I can't go back just yet not sure if I'll ever be ready boy. You have a choice go back where theres a roof over your head and food in your bowl" he runs down the road barking up a conversation I laugh " guess you made your choice