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Love sick

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Idol au (different from this one)
Plot: Mina starts acting differently when jihyo finds out what really is wrong she doesn't know if she should tell minas bestie...

Minas pov
My parents had recently gotten into a car crash causing me to fall into a deep depression I have not talked to any of my members except when I screamed at chaeyoung.

I knew that the members knew about my parents because they would always try to cheer me up with my favourite food and sometimes they try to talk to me but I only really give them short or no answers.

My parents death stung like a thousand needles and knowing that I had screamed at chaeyoung hurt less but it still hurt me.

I was gonna take my blade into the bathroom and finish what I started yesterday. When I came to the bathroom I sat down on the toilet lid to have some chair like comfort i took the blade and dragged up my pants a bit you could see some scars that were fresh from yesterday but every other scars were from two days when my parents passed away. I took the blade and pressed it down very hard and I think a bit to hard blood started running fuck I thought to myself I got mad and kept going than I grabbed some paper towels to press on the bleeding then I took some more paper towels to wipe the blood with my cuts but super much I made my way to the bathrooms shower and took a shower so that my cuts would not get infected than I wrapped my leg in a thick bandage.

Today I wanted to talk to my members about everything well not everything.. I wasn't prepared to tell them about my cuts just yet before going out of the bathroom I made sure to look so I didn't leave any traces. When I went out I saw jihyo Nayeon Tzuyu and dahyun watching singles inferno, my favourite show I went to them and said hi they all immediately all went to hug me and ask me questions I went and sat next to them. I had my hand on my leg jihyo went to hold my hand but when her hand touched my leg I whimperd she looked shocked "whoa are you okay" she said "oh yeah unnie haha I just have a cramp" I responded and gave my best fake smile she didn't look like she believed me one bit but she saw that I was uncomfortable and didn't ask me anything more which was good because that meant that there was less of a chance that they found out my very big secret .

Huge time skip (1 day)

I had made peace with my members and everything at least seemed fine I was starting to forgive myself the only problem was I had not eaten and I had developed a eating disorder and it was not so fun. All twice members had noticed but they knew that if they commented on it it would get way worse than it already was so they kept there mouth shut. I had lost 8 kg already and I was already skinny.

"Hey are you gonna eat breakfast" sana said breaking the silence dahyun and the others stared sana down "oh Uhm I have already eaten" I quickly responded it was silent for a few more awkward seconds before jihyo broke the silence "so girls I heard we are performing our summer song" "omg do we get to wear skirts and shorts?" Momo asked enthusiastically "yeah of course it wouldn't be a summer concept with out all those things!" Nayeon interrupted. All I could hear from that point forward was just beeping and nothing more it was all unclear the members were gonna know I cut myself they would look at me differently and once's would probably leave chaeyoung would probably hate me after and not want to be friends ever again all those things went spinning in my head before someone's cold hand was placed on my shoulder "hey you okay girl?" I heard from behind me I looked back and it was Tzuyu "uh yeah of course it's okay" I responded "well let's go" Nayeon said excitedly I didn't know where we were going but I could see that the members were getting there swimsuits so I ran to the bathroom to grab my make up and cover up my scars.

I took of my bandage and it placed the foundation on my relatively new cuts the foundation stung like hell but it was worth it. I went to get my bathing suit with a shark on it and my bucket hat i put it in our shared suitcase after a while it was time to go while walking I started spacing out. I started thinking about life if I "escaped" from this world but I got interrupted by dahyun talking about her tofu swimsuit when we arrived everyone was in a swimming suit for dance practice before our concert when it was my turn my leg really hurt but I was able to pull it of.

After all the other girls were done it was time for our concert before the concert started it was all going fine until my makeup that covered my scars started melting because of how hot it was and we had another hour I started to panic but I kept a professional face on. When we only had 15 minutes left my scars were totally exposed I even saw some fans pointing and filming my scars.

I could feel the tears coming I couldn't handle it anymore I ran of stage and up to the rooftop of the building. I sat down and dangled me feet for some time I didn't know for how long but at some point I could feel something inside me telling me to let go and go to the place where my family was I looked down and sighed before I stood up. I was about to let go before I felt someone grab my shirt it was chaeyoung she had red eyes from crying I touched her cheeks and said "it's my time to go.." until I felt something push me inside when I looked behind chaeyoung I also saw jihyo who was infuriated but wasn't ready to yell at me but yet "Mina I love you don't do this please I can't fill the hole in your heart from your parents death but me jihyo and the others cover a bit from your heart so when you die a pice of us die your mom and dad is watching you from above they don't want this for you I know exactly what your thinking right now and no it's not worth it please don't do it for us...?" Chaeyoung said while jihyo nodded I fell to the ground crying and I hugged her "chaeyoung I'm sor-" don't apologise to us apologise to yourself" jihyo interrupted while she took some bandages and covered up my scars I took my chance and kissed chaeyoung she kissed me back. I looked chaeyoung and said with a half smile

"Thank you for letting my parents wait a bit longer for me to join them up there"

A/N
(1293) words I wasn't that motivated to write this and it's because I have BIG time plans it may not be the next chapter but I'm the coming 3 chapters there will be a long one it will be personal to me because it's gonna be a bit based of one of my worst experiences so stay tuned for that<3
사랑해 (I love you)