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Throw up

Ship: Chaeyoung x twice
Very angsty
Tw: e@ting dis0rder, bülîmia

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Chaeyoung PoV:

There I sat, hunched over the toilet, puking up the mistakes of the night.

I was so good during the day, only eating rice cakes and the few mandatory bites of dinner or breakfast to keep of suspicion, but when night came around I just ate everything I could get my hands on. But it's okay i suppose, I can always just get rid of it..

The weight loss was noticeable, I still felt fat but I could see the bones.. Soon these baggy clothes won't be able to hide my weight.

Soon or soon, I only have a day, tomorrow is weight in day at JYP. That was mandatory. I guess I could ask to do it in private, but that would raise suspicion.

I puked up until my stomach felt empty. Untill all that came up was acid.

There was a sudden knock on the door, I jumped a bit.

"Please hurry, I need to use the bathroom" Sana whined.

"I will, one second" I said, getting up from my hunched over position, flushing the puke and spraying the bathroom in deodorant so the smell would be covered. With a sigh I unlocked the bathroom, getting out.

"Thanks" She said, pushing past me and hurrying in.

That made me chuckle slightly.

I went back to my room, preparing for tomorrow mentally, it was gonna be rough huh.

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Sana PoV:

The smell of deodorant was slightly overwhelming, did she even shower?

The bathroom always had a funky smell at this time, which was odd.

But perhaps it's just that the nose picks up scents differently during night? Or is that just me trying to rationalise? I shrugged if the thought, I mean, it's Chae we are talking about, she's always been easy to deal with and transparent with us.

The smell was getting to me. It smelled odd, like the bathroom after a wild party, puke maybe? Why would Chaeyoung be puking though? It's not like she's struggling with food, she eats just as much as us others. And her body seems the same, except maybe her face..

The more I thought about it the more I felt a sort of dread and anxiety crawl up.

Maybe it's nothing? Yeah, I'm overthinking.

I flush and wash my hands, maybe rest will bring me peace?

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Chaeyoung PoV:

It was the next morning, we all woke up late, as per usual, meaning the others were too stressed to make breakfast, which I was quite pleased with.

Sana seems off, she keeps glancing over at me when she thinks I don't take notice. Did I leave traces yesterday? I don't think so..

My thoughts were quickly cut off by Jihyo.

"Girls, we have to go, like now, so get in the car" Jihyo commanded. We all did as we were told and headed for the car.

I sat in the front next to Nayeon who was driving, I like sitting in front. The drive was calming, there was not much talk.

"So girl," Jihyo started, "remember this, what the scale will say doesn't matter okay? This comeback will go fine and our weight range that's acceptable by the company is pretty reasonable for being JYP, so don't worry" Jihyo reassured.

I roll my eyes at that, Nayeon shot me a confused glare, whoopsie.

"Thank you unnie, we know" Tzuyu said and smiled, the other girls nodded, so did I, even with both Sana and Nayeon looking over me like hawks.

When we arrived I exhaled, finally.

But i couldn't be relived, they'd most likely find out my little secret, and if they do, I'm beyond screwed.

I bite my lip.

"You okay?" Nayeon asked, I noticed we were alone in the car.

"Oh uh yeah, shoot we will be late, come on" I say, huh, pretty smooth deflection there Chaeyoung I tell myself.

I exited the car and hurried up to the office where I know the others were gonna be.

JYP himself was there, monitoring the scale as we each stepped on, one by one, I was last in line, of course. When it was my turn, I looked a bit sheepish, putting my phone in my pocket for that extra 400 grams.

I stepped on, the room went silent.

I was underweight by almost 10 kg.

Gasps were exchanged, Jihyo pulled my off and pulled my arm.

"Chaeyoung what is this!" She yelled out of concern.

I stayed quiet, looking around, the others were wide eyed and disturbed.

"Chaeyoung." Jyp said

"You will not be continuing group activities untill you gain at least 4kg" he said strictly, scolding me.

No.

I can't be fat.

Four whole kilograms.. that's-... no that's crazy! I can't just accept it!

"No." "I don't want to be fat just let me be." I pleaded

"Your a skeleton, your not fat, Chaeyoung do you not understand!?" Nayeon raised her voice, Jihyo smacked her shoulder.

"Don't call her that" Jihyo scolded. "Homer she has a point, you could die" Jihyo said.

I look over at Mina that was crying.

"Please don't hurt yourself more" Mina cried, seeing her like that made my heart burst, I myself began crying.

"B-but I'm fat.." I said crying, I didn't want to gain weight but seeing the girls like this... it was painful.

"You're not fat.. do you think I'm fat?" Tzuyu chimed in.

"No, you are ideal, you're so beautiful" I said, confused as to why she would even ask that.

"But I'm fatter than you?" She said.

I opened my mouth to speak but I couldn't.

"Well.." I said.

"No wells, no buts, we will help you through this just please-..." Jihyo said, her frustration turned into concern and anxiety.

"I know.. I'll try... I'll try to get better.." I said.

I didn't want to live in a life controlled by food, it was to much.

"I don't want to be a prisoner to the scale.." I said, they all hugged me.

"We love you" I heard, I couldn't tell who said it but I was pleased.

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A/N

Fluff will come soon, it's getting to sad around here😭