I didn't take anything with me when I left. I left her there alone. With all my things, my dog, my belongings. And I just went straight the the house Sabrina shared with her girlfriend. Of course they let me in and of course I let them know everything that was going on. My heart was broken, but I also hurt myself. I didn't want to leave. I want to go back to her because without her I'm just not happy. But she hurt me. But I want her.
It's been two days since I last saw her and a lot of things have happened. She didn't bother to call me but did text me a lot. I have her location and she hasn't left my house since I left. I also got hit up by Ariana Grande because she wanted to "talk". So that's what I have to do today. We decided to meet at a coffee shop that she picked. It was a bad idea letting her pick where we met up but it was the least of my worry's right now.
"Hi Y/N" She looked absolutely sick. She was being held on house arrest since our incident. I did press charges on her but being as big as an celebrity she is she got 2 years on house arrest and the whole incident somehow stood out of new sites and the public eye. But for some reason she wanted to talk to me.
"Hi" As I walked closer to the table she got up and tried to hug me but I sat down. "So what's this about. If your trying to get me to drop your charges or lower your sentence its not happening"
"No no, I completely deserve what's happened to me. I just brought you here to apologize. I did you wrong in so many ways and I know words can never make up for the pain that I put you through. And I know there nothing I can do or give you that can make you forget. But I just wanted to let you know that me personally, I have stopped the parties, and the drugs, and alcohol and anything that could bring me back to that day. I don't associate with those celebrities anymore and" She sounds genuine. And I think she was, when your on house arrest they drug test you. And if you come back positive it's just more time on your sentence but then again she's Ariana fucking Grande.
"It might be hard to believe me but I'm serious. I don't know what I was thinking and once I saw that I actually hurt you and took a toll on you I knew I just had to stop" This apology reminded me of Billie. I missed her so much.
As I listened to Ariana talk with me an idea came to my head. I need to meet up with Jesse. So as she still spoke and apologized to me I took a second to text him and told him to meet me here.
"But yeah, and I know you'll never want to me friends but at least if you could forgive me it could be a step forward in my li- I forgive you" I cut her off. "As long as no one else gets hurt I forgive you"
"Oh...well I wasn't expecting you to say it so quickly....well I wasn't expecting you to say it at all"
"Just don't hurt anyone else Ari" I got up and stuck my arms out. Hesitant me she also got up and walked into my embrace. After that she seemed scared but I really couldn't care enough right now. After we spoke she grabbed her stuff and left while I stood waiting for Jesse. When I saw him come in my heart dropped and I could feel anger just come across me. I wanted to kill the man but I couldn't. For many reasons.
As I sat there I heard footsteps slowly creep behind me. I knew it was him and I really didn't even know if I was ready to face him. But it felt like this had to be done. He turned the corner of my table and sat across from me with a blank expression. He raised his eyebrows and spoke. "What's up"
"Honestly, I don't know" Was all I could manage to get out.
"Well then I'm gonna go-no" I cut him off. "Why"
"Why what" He crossed his arms.
"Why did you do what you did? Knowing that we were together, knowing who I was-knowing that we lived together. Why would you put her in such a position"
"Honestly Y/N" He sat up and looked at me. "Since I met her I just thought that I could do better for her"
"Why and how did you think that?"
"I'm older, I'm experienced, I know what to do. I could just provide more for her"
"Well you obviously don't know the kind of person Billie is because she doesn't care about what you have or what you've been through if she likes you she likes you for you. She doesn't need or want money. And let me remind that your a 31 year old man that's been through more than a dozen relationships and All your gonna do is break her heart just like you did to Devon. She doesn't need a person like you in her life"
"So then why did she come to me" She sat back and smiled.
"Because your like her idol. She looked up to you since she was a teen. Can you blame her for being excited to spend time with a person she always looked up to. Your not as special as you think you are Jesse. Billie doesn't need you and she never wanted you. Now I suggest you stay out of our lives" I took a 20 out of my wallet, put it on the table and left. I had to go back to my girl. I felt like if I spent even another hour away from her I was gonna break. I needed her around me. So I drove home as fast as I could.
BILLIES POV
"You remind me of your mom Smoke" I spoke the pit bull Y/N had gotten for us. I had never felt so alone in my life. If I was being honest I hadn't eaten since she's left, I haven't showered, I haven't cleaned, I haven't done anything but lay in bed with the dog and be on my phone. I've just been waiting for her to come home. I don't dare to call her, it's not like she'd pick up anyway. I text her every hour of the day and I either get small responses or none at all.
I haven't left the bed because it smells like her. It's soft like her. But it's not her. Suddenly smoke ran off the bed barking and running towards the steps. Scared out of my asscheeks I got up slowly and walked down the stairs. She was there.
Once I saw her I ran into her arms and hugged her as tightly as I could.
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