I am afraid of so much
Afraid to fall, afraid to flee
afraid to feel peacefulness
especially when I know it feels freeing
I am afraid for longing
a childish dream, just wanting to feel belonging
It has been difficult to carefully articulate words into paper
ever since I grew and met her
It wasn't that long ago when I felt a special greatness
I felt powerful when I finally gave in
When I took control of a dire situation
because I was so emotionally frail then
When I realized that I have to admit defeat
and face the future with broken glasses stuck on my feet
I am still walking strong head-on
Moving forward even when I step on sharp rocks and thorns
I know now what to do, what it feels to heal
It is not just freeing, it is what it supposed to be
I am meant to feel hurt, but that doesn't mean I am not deserving
