Miracle

Big game

    I lie here in bed thinking of you .

Specifically , the night of your big game . I love my tall boyfriend and like any other tall kid , you joined the basketball team . Sure you had played a few matches before but that was the bigg game . That game could give you a sports scholarship at Michigan .

I remember how much you were sweating . I tried to calm you down but you just wouldn't . I remember cheering for you . After the first half , you wouldn't even talk to me . I tried to convince you that you did good .

“Not good enough”you said as your knee bounced .
“I'm here Josh”I whispered
“You can talk to me or not talk to me , but I'm here, always “
“Just remember that you're important to me , you peice of self-doubting shit”

I got a little chuckle out of you and then you kissed me , with all your might , as if trying to keep a peice of me with you . You ran to the court again . And wasn't I right , you peice of self doubting but always winning shit . I wish I could kiss you right now .

When the game was over , I screamed the loudest . I remeber hugging you so tight , your head on my chest and my chin on your head . I just want you to know that in the middle of my chaos , there was always YOU.
Then exactly what we were waiting for , the coach came up to you

“Josh , they want to talk to you”
“Wait are you serious right now”
“Yes , very serious , hurry up”
“Yeah just a minute”
“Babe”you said to me
“I know , now go” I replied pushing you in the direction the coach went.
“Just a quick kiss for good luck.”
“Yeah ok now go, get out of here.”

When you returned you had the fakest frown on your face and said
“I didn't get it”
“Stop playing with me you asshole.”
“O.K , but can I know why so many names for me ? Did I do something wrong”
“You could never do anything that would make me mad.”
“Really , I feel so lucky “
“Well you are”
“I know , cause otherwise how could I have gotten such a beautiful girlfriend “
“Need I remind you that you are a jock now .”
“I suppose that has it's privlages”

We would have went home , BUT as I said earlier , you were a jock now so we had to go to the party to celebrate the team's victory . We got so drunk that we just passed out there on their couch and woke up with the worst headache the next morning. Lying here I can't imagine how yo could doubt yourself . Josh , you are AMAZING . The best thing in my life . You are that part of me that I will always need .I don't think that you will ever realise that you changed everything for me . You can tell me every terrible thing that you ever did and I would still love you . Never think that you have no one cause remember that it's always

                    Just you and me
                  Just Josh and Judith.