LEARNING TO SAY GOODBYE

II

Luan

First day of school, every part of my body was vulnerable to the absence of Dorian, that was the first time I faced being without him.

I do not remember a day when his mere presence will not brighten my days, where seeing and hearing him generated a sense of calm and joy, but it was true, now we were both in a new scenario, except that the struggle for our dreams would be separated from the other.

I miss him.

I look around, it is clear that I will not have a familiar face in sight, there is nothing that makes me feel calm, the new scares me and here I am, in an encounter with new faces, I visualize an empty bench, right in front, I do not take long to decide that I will sit there, a girl smiles at me, I respond to the greeting and get lost in my world.

«You should get out of your comfort zone —I tell myself, trying to motivate myself.

—Hello —greets the same girl who smiled at me seconds ago.

—Hello.

—You're not from here, are you?», he asks, trying to make a topic of conversation.

—No, this is all new to me —I admit, shrugging.

—Well, I am present, I am Chiara, but it is pronounced with "sh".

—A pleasure, my name is Luan —I replied somewhat overwhelmed, socializing was not one of my best qualities, but I always took care of being kind and leaving something in people.

⁓I hope your day starts very nice, you know that I admire you a lot and I will always trust you.

I wrote to Dorian, knowing him, the possibility of him seeing the message would be little, getting lost in his world, the rest could go into the background. The exciting thing would be to talk to him on the first of many video calls.

Time to time, he told me looking to feel better, leaving the places that bother me was one of my best skills, I look around the place is beautiful, the photos fell short with everything, I take a breath, I know I'm not alone, but why did I feel that way?, Why did I feel as if everything was about to take a 180-degree turn? I lean on the balcony railing, close my eyes bringing to me the presence of Dorian, he would not let me feel like that, so lost and distant, no, he would encourage me to be me and give everything.

He trusts me, I have his unconditional support and now is an opportunity for both of us to find that balance.

I return to the classroom, my legs resist running away, I take a seat just in time, the first class is the beginning of a whole day in which I am willing to find that new motivation, my vocation.

Dorian

WOO, I beat the alarm, I certainly thought I was going to wake up late or that I wasn't even going to get up, now I have to look for what to wear for the first day...In high school Lu helped me choose what to wear, I never thought that one day we would move away, the irony is that we do not do it because we wanted to, it was just like that it happened and now we must adapt to this ... Surely she is already on her way to her first day, I hope she does well.

I don't remember the last time I was at school without Luan, I think it was a day she got sick, and I had to stay alone all day, but now it's different, this time it's certain that I won't see her in this place and that I'll have to socialize or try to talk to others. guys to survive, life without Lu is so hard, starting the day without her vibe makes everything feel so dull, she always awakens something in me that makes me feel energized.

«You should get out of your comfort zone» I tell myself, trying to motivate myself.

Late in looking for my classroom, but after asking a concierge for help he took me to the classroom that indicated my strip of subjects, the first thing I saw when I arrived was a tall boy, with curly hair, with a carefree dress and greeting everyone (Including me to me when I entered), his eyes were very expressive, when he greeted people he seemed to smile at them, I thought he was someone nice and with whom it is easy to socialize, so I decided to sit down with him and introduce myself.