LEARNING TO SAY GOODBYE

IV

Luan

Two days passed, I did not want to talk to Dorian, I expected more from him, that he insisted or made an effort to look for me, I had not felt so much courage and disappointment, something in me broke, it was not just any moment, it was our special moment and that he was overshadowed by his new friend, he made me feel hurt.

Same and it was silly the way I reacted, but I really did everything possible so that we were both talking, Was it too much to ask for a message?, I was scared, I thought for a moment that something had happened to him.

My appetite stopped being the same, I had not lasted so long without talking to him, after much thought I agreed to put aside my pride, today is an important day for him, he plays a game and I want to support him, I want so much to see him and let him know that I regret my reaction, that I recognize that I was him, but despite this, I'm still there, being his fan, the one who is going to support him no matter what.

I woke up early, took a bath and got ready for him, I couldn't let the bus go, this was my chance to see him again in a physical way, I keep my phone, enough money and my apology in a bag.

Reading stopped being an option hours ago, the nerves were bigger than anything, —If he sees me, will he talk to me or will he pass me by?—, he asked me constantly, I tried to encourage myself, he could not see me like that, less at such a crucial moment, in the end, nerves and thoughts would be my companions on this path to meet his eyes and melt into him in a hug full of much love.

Dorian

I feel strange, in all this time something like this had not happened with Luan, we commonly talked and arranged everything at that moment, but now it is different, it is as if we both exploded and did not know how to act. I accept that it was my mistake, I didn't have to stay so long with Matthew, and I shouldn't have said all that to Lu, —What a fool you are Dorian—, I acted in such an immature and selfish way, I wish I could see her to ask for forgiveness, but I don't blame her, after everything I went through that night I wouldn't want to hear from me for long either.

Well, I will try not to torment myself so much with this, in a few moments I have my first game and playing always helps me to keep my mind blank, although... This makes me miss Luan more, she was always in the stands watching me and supporting me, today I will feel the emptiness of her batons; It hurts me not to have her around, unfortunately I will have to adapt to her absence...

—Hey and Where are you? —That's the first thing I hearwhen answering the call.— Your time toshine is coming.

—I'm on my way,— I answer and hang up the call.

Dorian took his backpack with his uniform inside, his phone, his helmet and Matthew's motorcycle keys he lent him to get to his game early, and leaves his house still thinking about whether Luan will attend the game.

*

For his part, Luan, was on the bus, with his headphones on listening to —Sad Song— by We the Kings Ft. Elena Coats, tried to calm her nerves by rolling her hair, did not stop spinning the Dorian's affair, I thought about what to say to him and how he would act when he had him face to face.

—It's not like that, you're not like that, what happened to us? —Luan asked himself without getting any answer.

The loud sound of a horn pulled her out of thought, the bus was stuck in the middle of heavy traffic. Luan's nerves soared , he felt his heart beating a thousand per hour, he was afraid of not being able to arrive on time for Dorian's match, of not being able to support him, see him, talk to him, fix things ...