Gamefield

Chapter 15

Monday passed quickly and everything went well. I was successfully avoiding Alex and she did't contact me, what was strange but not my business. Meghan was better after painful weekend and she was ready to start her romance life from scratch as she declared. I was glad she's my roommate. It wasn't boredom at all and also I could support her when she will need, because I knew break ups aren't linear but spirals.

Tuesday was more difficult for me, because I desired to see Alex, talk to her, be with her for a while, maybe touch her? We have a drill today so I assume I'll have an opportunity. But I didn't see her anywhere. She missed our common class and lunch and nobody from team saw her.

„Where are you Alex?" I asked myself when I thought she won't come to drill as well. But she did.

She was a little late. She appeared when part of team worked with hitting machine and trained their hits and part tried to catch a ball during the run. I was the first part. It was fun and I almost forgot about Alex, but in the corner of my mind, I sensed all signals for her. When she came, I stopped in the middle of work and ball hit me to hand.

„Ouch!" I groaned and Winny sent me away to care about it. I moved my hand to all way carefully. It pained a little but it's useful for now.

Alex was in the second part. She practised pitching next to Grace and Taylor with other girls catching.

I returned back to continue with hitting. I was glad I see Alex. Maybe to see her from distance is enough for me. Our drill went well and I felt endorphines flooded my veins. After two hours I felt satisfied and relaxed. I noticed Alex tried to contact me with her eyes but I missed it purposely and went to dress rooms with Amy and Anne.

„It was fun today," Anne stated.

„Yeah," I agreed.

„What about your hand?" Amy was interested. I rotated my wrist again and pain appeared, but we have a match next week so I lied.

„Fine."

„I think Winny wants you as catcher," Amy noted me.

„Seriously? In the first match?" I was shocked.

„Yes. The new ones in combination with us. She claims we need to start to practise with audience to settle in," Anne added.

The excitement rose inside me. I changed quickly and left dress rooms. That's something. To play with these girls in real match. It will be better than teambuilding.

My good mood lasted until I saw Alex again... with Bailey. And now what? Should I ignore the jealousy and turmoil inside? Or to do anything? But do I have a right to do anything? No. I don't think I have.

Okay. Breath and stay rational. Alex seemed anxious and uncomfortable. Bailey is obviously happy and catch no hints from Alex. They are staying against each other with no touches. Alex tried to avoid eye contact. Why? I didn't hear anything they talked about.

I should go. It's not fair to watch them. Whatever they do it's not my business. I fought with myself inside and when my sensible part won and I was ready to leave I catched something in the corner of my eye.

Bailey who was also shorter than Alex stood on her tiptoes and kissed Alex... on lips. Alex looked startled and paralyzed. I could go before I saw that. Now I felt similar than Alex. Paralyzed. Unable to move. Just staring in their way. Now they're walking to dress rooms together. So again. What the hell? My rational part tried to take control again but under the pressure of circumstances it failed. I decided to wait for Alex and ask her for explanation. I totally forgot about my efforts to avoid her. Alex left dress rooms quickly and I saw she's rushing. She even didn't change all her training outfit.