Gamefield

Chapter 31

I managed to do all my terms on the first time. Elliott who tried to be connected with me congrats me. Everything was as always except for Alex. I missed her so much that it made me crazy sometimes. I would give everything what I had for the possibility to talk to her. But she didn't want. She also avoided Meghan and Marco. I had no idea if I can bear more suffering. My only hope was to meet her at school when the term starts again.

Meghan asked me to go with her to the cinema or dinner or play games. She does everything to keep me bussy. Our roles changed and I knew she couldn't see me like this anymore. I lost about ten pounds. I couldn't sleep and all I did was looking at my cell phone if Alex answered and at the present she left under the tree when she left.

One night when I couldn't sleep again I decided it's over with me like this. I have to do something because I'm lost for next months. I put my sport clothes on, took my keys and went to run. It always helps me to calm down. I did that every evening since then.

The term started and our drills too. Winny had bussy plan for us. I mean really bussy. We will be glad if we will do assigments properly. Alex was avoiding me during the lunch breaks, drills and still on the phone. I gave it up. If I'm not worthy of simple conversation it doesn't have sense. That thought made me nauseous.

I waited for Winny after drill to tell her I have urgent duties during the term of our coming teambuilding.

„Hi, Winny," I greeted her when she came back from field.

„Hi. If you are here to tell me you are not going to teambuilding I don't accept that," she started before I could and I stayed startled how she knows. Then I realized there is only one way she could know. Alex was there first.

„I have something important," I said defensively.

„I don't care. If you want to stay in team you will come. It's not fair to others." Winny just told me to fuck off. Alex did the same before. I had no idea how much I can bear. I nodded and left.

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So it was. Me and Alex, we both had to go. It was few weeks we didn't talk together. After one month I lost my hope that things will be better between us. I prepared my plan how to avoid her all the time. Futile effort.

I almost managed that first evening when we were free of duty. I noticed she went out with Bailey and I couldn't contain myself but watched them from a distance. I was sure they couldn't see me. And I couldn't hear them.

I saw they went to the bench in front of cottage and Bailey caressed her hand but nothing more. What the hell they are talking about. I turned back inside from porch because someone could see me and I didn't want any suspicion.

I met Jenny with two glasses of wine. She handed me one.

„Thanks," I said sadly and took one seat in a hallway.

„You okay?" Jenny asked worriedly.

„Not really," I sighed.

„You two are fighting, aren't you?" I nodded.

„How do you know?"

„We're living it with you. Girls saw your different behaviour during the drills. They claimed it will be okay again."

„I wish."

„Why don't you talk with Alex?"

„She's avoiding me all the time."

„Yeah. She did that when she feels bad," Jenny confirmed.

„I don't want to impose," I stated.

„Isn't Alex worth of mild imposition? I mean, she never will go first." Jenny objected.