Classroom of the Elite (Ayanokoji Kiyone)

Volume 1 : Epilogue

Kushida Kikyo POV

The feeling when we have an advantage that no one else has is the most beautiful feeling, right?...

When we were at Elementary School, everyone around you will be happy if you could finished such a small feats. For example, when you get first place in an exam or when you win when playing chase. They pay attention to us right?

Great, cool, cute

You've had moments of being the center of attention, right?

I really want to attract attention

I want to be praised

When it is fulfilled, the value of my existence becomes attained. You could say I'm thirsty for recognition. Maybe I'm more addicted on that feeling than anyone else.

But I know my limits...

No matter how hard I try, I will never match anyone else in terms of studies or sports. That's why I thinking so hard. I just need to do something which no one else can do.

'I will teach you to study'

'I will help you'

'I will cheer you up'

I could became nicer and kinder than everyone else. Because of that, I could become number one.

Be the most famous!

I feel trusted to be relied on!

It feels so good!

But to do everything that no one else wants to do it is very tiring. It's obviously very tiring!

I'm tired...

Its too much burden for me...

But I must be patient. So that I could stay famous. What I've got can't be lost. I keep endure it. But there is a limits I can do!

Until that day...

Who can cheer me up, only my blog. Only there I can express all the stress which I can't bear! Then slowly but surely the turmoil inside me died down.

But one day...

My classmates accidentally found my blog. Even if my name was hidden somehow, they could guess from the contents on the blog. Because I have said bad things about them many times, so I accept the consequences. However, it turned out that they blamed me all over. Even though I've helped them a lot, but they all attacked me instead! Those ungrateful!

The boys who once said he loves me! The girls who I comforted after their boyfriend dumped them!

But the boys are disgusting, so I wanted them just go die! And the girls who get dumped by their boyfriend, but if only they reflected on themselves they should have been understand why they got dumped!

I feel threats from around me because all my classmates have become my enemies. That's why I used my last attempt to defend myself, I decide to revealed everything. All the facts that I did not write on my blog.

'She is cheating behind you'

'He spreads other people's disgrace in a different group chat'

'He stealing your money'

'She is actually from poor family'

And many other dark secret I held from them

All the dark truths that lie between them all. After that....

The sword which supposed to be pointed at me, I had shifted it to someone else. 

I'm not wrong....

Why am I to blame?...