Classroom of the Elite (Ayanokoji Kiyone)

Volume 4 : Prologue

??? POV

In the end, even after I entered this school. Nothing had changed. 

No, perhaps it was that I had no intention of changing anything from the start. For better or for worse, it was the same as that time. The reason for that was very simple. I understand myself more than anyone else does. Both my strengths and my weaknesses, I know them all. I know none of the boys and none of the girls like me. Even though I understood that clearly I didn't think to change. But it doesn't matter. Because I had long since stopped perceiving it as hurtful. Because I myself wanted this.

As I got out of the shower attached to the student rooms, I looked at myself in the mirror while water droplets accumulated on my skin. How many, just how many times, have I wanted to smash this mirror into pieces? Every time I see wounds of the past in it, I'm reminded of my horrid past. 

Suddenly feeling dizzy and nauseated, I quickly put my hands on the sink and vomit into it.

??? : "Blergh-!"

Why?

Why am I looked at with such eyes?

Why?

Why do I have to suffer like this?

Why?

Why?

Why?

I repeated the same question to myself countless times. Words that no longer carried any meaning. The past is immutable. I cannot change anyone or anything from the past anymore.

God has been very cruel to me. My very personality was destroyed by the nightmare of that time, I had also lost my youth, my friends and myself to it.

I need to correct that mistake now.

No matter how much they hate me, it's still better than suffering that again.

Yes. I don't need 'youth'.

I don't need 'friends'.

The most important thing is that I protect myself.

I will do whatever I must to ensure that.

I am...a parasite. A weak creature incapable of surviving on its own.

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Ayanokoji Kiyone POV

Three days have passed since the the test on the uninhabited island. 

On the luxurious cruise ship our school provided us with, nothing of note was happening and there a peaceful lull had set in. For students still in the primetime of their youth, having to undergo survival on an island like that, most would lose their rational judgment.

Right now I'm talking with an acquintance of mine

Kiyone : "I see, so there is a mole inside your class huh?"

Satonaka : "That's it. Well, for Katsuragi who supposed to be cautious. Making deal with Ryuuen is totally a blunder for him. I wonder, does he desperate so much that he even though about making deal with him?"

Kiyone : "To think that he got betrayed from both side. Somehow I kinda pity him..."

Satonaka : "Anyway, its impressive that your class managed to get 1st position. How you guys do that- No, how you guys deceived Ryuuen?"

I take sip

Kiyone : *slurp* "I'm not quite understand myself. It was all Horikita-san doing. Honestly I don't even understand how it ended up like this. I just simply following her order"