Lola sat in the living room as she sat flickering through the tv and sighed, her mind was on gray, she knew all that he had done and how he had sent her a visiting order
Part of her wanted to see him, she missed him and she knew part of her wanted to go and see why. She knew it was a mess. She wanted to know that the man that she had fallen in love with was real and she wanted to know it would all be okay
Lola knew it wasn't going to happen and she knew that everything was last okay now. Lola looked to see mick as he walked into the room as he looked to his daughter and smiled
"Are you okay princess" he asked as Lola lifted her head off of the couch and moved along so that he sat next to her
"Talk to me lo. I know you and I know that you haven't been the same since gray and what he did. You know it's not your fault" he said as she smiled
"It feels that way gran won't even look at me if I knew over Tina I would never of stayed there. Even though part of me loves him still despite it all" Lola said as mick smiled
"None of it is your fault. It's normal to feel this way" he said as she smiled. She had Ed him the visiting order and sighed
"And then there is this and I just don't know what to do" Lola said as he smiled
"Do you want to see him" he asked as she smiled
"No...yes....I don't know" Lola said as mick smiled
"Don't let him get in your head if you do decide to go. Your better then that" he said as Lola smiled
Lola knew how none of it was easy and how it was a mess. It always was when it came to her and gray
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Lola got to the prison and sat in the waiting room and looked to gray as he sat down. She looked to him and smiled "I'm glad you came" he said as she looked to him and smiled
"Yeah well I didn't do it for you. I did it for me" she said as he sighed
"I get that. I didn't mean for any of this Lola. What we had was real I loved you and I miss you. I still think over you" he said as she looked to him.
She knew that deep down that there was still a soft spot for him in her heart "I get that but you weren't thinking over me when you killed my aunt"
"It was an accident and I panicked and I know you don't believe me but I swear it's the truth" he said as Lola felt a tear roll down her face
Lola knew how hard it was for her and she knew how overwhelming it was
"I know that you don't believe me but I am telling you the truth I love you Lola, I am going to serve my time but I am not giving up on you what we had" he said as he reached across and grabbed her hand
Lola looked to him and smiled "I'm sorry gray, I need to focus on myself, you killed someone and that is something I can't forgive this is goodbye" she said as she stood up and walked off
She was fighting back the tears. She could hear the yelling as he shouted after her. Lola knew that this was the hardest thing that she had to do. But she knew that she had to do it
Lola knew that she had to say goodbye so that she could try and move on with her life and move on from gray atkins
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Lola got back home and smiled as she walked into the kitchen and saw Linda as she sat down "you okay baby?" Linda asked as Lola nodded
"Did you go and see him?" Linda asked
"Yeah I had to look him in the eye and ask him he is still saying it's an accident, I don't know if I believe him or not but it's a mess and I just don't know what to think but I had to go. I had too look him in the eye one more time" Lola said as kinda smiled
She walked over and pulled her daughter into a hug and smiled "it will be okay " Linda said as Lola ran her hands through her hair and sighed
"I guess so. It's just....I had to do this now. I had to go and tell myself it's voer you know. I had to get some sort of closure and try and get rid of the guilty I wad feeling especially now" Lola said as Linda frowned
"What do you mean especially now?" Linda asked as Lola looked to her and sighed
"I'm pregnant. I'm having his baby" Lola said as Shirley stood in the doorway listening in
But could she find a way to support her granddaughter as she went through the hardest thing that she had to do?
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Pieces of me *G.Atkins*
Fanfiction"Gray isn't a bad man. He loves me" "He is princess. He killed people" Lola Carter Is the daughter of mick and Linda. She is also in a relationship with gray. They are happy and she thinks that he is perfect. She has no idea just what he is capable...
