The Bachelor Party • BTS OT7 / JJK

Chapter 11

Siri's POV

I whispered I loved him as he held me. I don't know if he heard me but I was sure he was asleep as his breathing was deep and his heart had calmed down.

I felt it pounding when he spooned me and when I snuggled against his chest though.

He didn't know it, but I cried a little while we snuggled together.

I'm never gonna get to do this again with him. I'm never going to get the chance to tell him I love him.

I should have said something at uni but I knew he didn't think of me in that way back then so what was the point? I would've just got my heart broken.

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Monday... 

I woke up with my head on Jungkook's chest and his right hand was on top of my left hand. I went to rub my eyes and felt him stir awake, waking up with a loud yawn.

JK: "Mm, morning Noona."

"Mor...ning..." I was startled by what I noticed on his right hand when he dropped it back down after yawning.

I instantly lifted myself and leaned on my right elbow, making him wake up a little more at my action. I took his right hand and brought it closer for me to see. I frowned and my heart sank when I noticed something missing on his finger.  How did I not notice this earlier?

"You removed your crown tattoo?" I asked, looking at him. I couldn't contain the hurt I felt seeing it gone. 

I looked at my own right hand, seeing the crown tattoo I had. We got them together with Taehyung and Jimin back at uni for our first tattoo...

JK: "Yeah... my fiancée and her family don't approve of tattoos..."

He got rid of our friendship tattoo for her?

"Oh..." I frowned.  "You really love her..." I said while looking at and rubbing my thumb over the area where the tattoo was meant to be on his finger. A faint white outline of the tattoo remained.

What am I thinking?  Of course he loves her.  He wouldn't be marrying her otherwise.

But why did it feel like a teeny tiny piece of me broke just now? 

I removed myself from him as I could feel tears were about to spring out of my eyes. I didn't want him to see me like that so I kept my back facing him.

I cleared my throat, "Just gonna have a shower" I croaked out and had to sniffle to stop the tears. One tear managed to fall but I quickly wiped that up, picked up a change of clothes and got out of that room as fast as I could.

I heard a quiet 'sure' from Jungkook as I left and I didn't look back. 

Jungkook's POV

Waking up with Siri on my chest was bitter sweet. I enjoyed laying and cuddling with her. I definitely missed doing that with her.

But then I felt like the biggest piece of shit on Earth when I saw the look on her face when she noticed my tattoo was gone.

And then she had to say 'You really love her'.

It wasn't a question, it was a statement. And for some reason, I felt a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. I almost wanted to say 'No I don't' and just hold her close to reassure her. But I couldn't.

I felt even worse when I saw tears pooling at her eyelids as she removed herself from me and I felt further guilt when I saw her quickly wipe away a tear.

She was absolutely hurt.

Like I had just broken her heart.

And there was nothing I could say or do because I couldn't... She's not mine and I'm not hers...

But the question I have running in my mind now is... Why did I feel like saying 'No I don't'? 

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