Forbidden Lover • H.H.J x L.F.L •

1.

I grabbed my bag and rushed out the door, ignoring the angry yells from my parents. I just came out as gay to them. It really didn't go well, they kicked me out.

I knew my parents were against it but I didn't think they would react this poorly. I didn't know where I was going, but I ran. My eyes blurred with tears and I could barely see anything, but I still ran.

I felt hurt, I felt broken. The people you always want to impress in life now looked down upon me, and for what? Being attracted to men?

I stopped running for a moment to check how much money was in my bank account. I'd earned about one thousand dollars, that should be enough for a few nights at a hotel, then I guess I'd have to try go back home.

I googled the cheapest motel in the area and began to walk to it, hoping there would be availability.

I made it outside a crappy looking motel, it had flickering lights and the 'o' wasn't working. It looked pretty dingy, but at least it was cheap.

I walked inside, smiling at the admin lady, she didn't smile back. "You want a room?" She asked, typing away on her phone. I gulped,
"y-yes.." I mumbled, sounding a lot smaller than I'd meant to.

She nodded, chewing on her gum obnoxiously loud as she wrote it down on a notepad. "There's one room left, lucky you." She sneered, grabbing a key and tossing it on the desk. "Room 14. It's on the third floor." She instructed, glancing back to her phone.

I shyly grabbed the key, walking to the lift and pressing the third floor. I waited patiently as the old rickety lift went up. It felt like it could stop working at any given moment.

It finally stopped and I stepped out, hit by the strong scent of cheap toilet cleaner. I shivered in disgust and walked to room 14. I fumbled around with the key nervously for a bit until the door unlocked. I opened it, cringing at the sound of the hinges creaking.

As I walked in I was appalled, why was there a suitcase on the bed? Why was the bathroom light on? Oh shit. This better not be someone else's room.

Just as I was thinking that, a handsome male that looked to be around my age walked out of the bathroom. He jumped in shock and his eyes widened when he saw me. "What the fuck-?" He mumbled, raking a finger through his hair as he blinked curiously.

"Ah shit. I'm so sorry! the admin lady just gave me this key, I didn't know it was already in use." I mumbled, blushing a bit at his intense stare. He nodded slowly, rummaging through his suitcase as he pulled out some pyjamas.

I felt rather awkward just standing there so I cleared my throat to indicate I had something to say. He glanced up, tossing a shirt on as I opened my mouth to speak. Nothing came out. He raised an eyebrow, "yeah?" He prompted, walking into the bathroom to change into his pyjama pants. He left the door open.

"I-I can leave if you want?" I called out, cursing under my breath as I unwillingly stuttered. He poked his head out from the bathroom door, pulling his pants up as he spoke. "Nah it's fine, just stay. It's no biggy." He responded, smiling a bit as he walked out with his pants on.

I felt my lips stretch into a small smile, I was happy he let me stay, but now as I observed his face closer, I don't think it will be easy to stop my gay self from freaking out.

He had long black hair tied up into a small ponytail, plump lips and a strong jawline. To say the least, he was fucking hot.

He noticed me staring and raised an eyebrow, "what?" He questioned, taking his hair out of the ponytail and glancing at it in the mirror. He didn't wait for me to respond, instead he started talking again. "I'm here cuz my parents want me to cut my hair. They don't like anything that's too feminine, even if I tell them a million times I'm not gay. So I just wanted to get away from it all for a bit" The male spoke sadly, tying his hair back up and glancing back at me.

"My names Hyunjin by the way."

I gulped, nodding. "I'm Felix. I'm here cuz I am gay and my parents kicked me out."

He glanced up in shock. "Oh shit man, are you okay?" He questioned, walking towards me and gently rubbing my back. I felt my cheeks go red and I hated it, so I kept my face down. I sniffled slightly as a few tears rolled down my cheeks. I didn't want him to see me crying, so with a shaky hand, I wiped them away.

"Shh.. it's okay." He mumbled, pulling me towards his chest. My face was basically squished against his body. He smelt good, like a mixture of vanilla and roses. I wrapped my arms around him, not really knowing what to do.

I wanted to die of shame as I unwillingly started to sob against his chest. "I-I just want them t-to accept me.." I choked out, only crying harder as I felt him stroking the top of my head. "It'll be okay, I believe in you Felix." Hyunjin mumbled into my ear, pinching my cheeks affectionately.

I blushed, finally pulling back as I realised our position. He rubbed the nape of his neck awkwardly, but nothing more was said. My sight drifted from his to the one double bed in the middle of the room.

He followed my eyes and turned around, glancing at the bed. He chuckled, turning back to face me. "Do you like cuddles, Lix?" He questioned, hands on hips as he stared at me. I nodded slightly, "B-But-" I started, but was interrupted by his loud laugh.

"I don't."

"But it'll have to do."