nov 19th 2022
I'm so fucking worthless, like bro i just made a glass over flow cause I forgot like i'm so fucking stupid i should like un-exist, no one would really care anyway, well beside a few people, i mean one of my friends even go out of there way to hurt me like woah thanks for knowing i exist but then theres one that just kinda ignores me but i dont blame them a dumb-ass like me should be ignored.
i kinda need a hug but i know i dont deserve it i'm fucking ugly and gross and idk.
i want to 0f7 m4s3l7
i probs should
dont want others to feel bad so i bottle it up the best i can and i try not to vent cause then i might make'em annoy or mad and i get scared when someone is mad, so i so goddamn sensitive and idk
Me= worthless, dumb, stupid, ugly, terrible, annoying, and a fucking ass
i take P0l5s to get rid of pain and i feel bubbles and coloursss but they make my partner sad when every i do so i try my best for them
i want to shoot myself in the head
now when ever i cry, in my head instead "sad thoughts" it just me uncontlably screaming in pain
pain
i deserve pain
pain
no sleep
just
pain
i'm sorry i'm so sorry i dont wanna die, i just dont wanna exist, i dont wanna be in fucking endless pain
no no wait
i deserve it
nvm i'll be fine
i'm fine
i promise
