his secret lover - patrick hockstetter

part9

its been 2 weeks. school finishes for a month in a week, thank the lord. i need a break from that shithole. nothing much has happened with the bowers gang recently. ive only been hanging out with Bev, since she is the only one that really understands me and has the same funny humor as me.

"Do you wanna go the arcade? I heard there are new machines in there." She says, eating her BubbleGum ice cream. I was really bored just walking around Derry, so why not.

"Of course, i have some money left anyway." I say, lighting a cigarette. We giggled, walking down the street, towards the arcade. I stop in my tracks, seeing the Losers Gang. I didnt want to talk to them because of what Patrick said. I didnt even know if he was lying or telling the truth, so i just decided to distance myself from them. I told Beverly everything. She was shocked too, and slightly mad. I puff on my cigarette, looking the other way as they approached us.

"Oh my god, we havent seen yous in ages. Where have you been?" Eddie shouts excitedly. I try not to look at them, just puffing on my cigarette. I look in the corner of my eye, seeing Richie looking at me. "Y/n, since when did you smoke.? Please tell me ur not addicted like Bev here." He says softly, fixing his glasses. Why me? I cant ingore them forever. They were the first people to hang out with me.

"No, im not addicted Rich. Beverly is though." I say, winking at her. They giggle, and i felt so happy. Just us laughing again like we used too. I missed this feeling. Plus Patrick was probably just lying. He always does. Jealous i bet. "Anyways, what have u lot been up too? Its been awhile. I say, putting my cigarette out on the wall.

"Y'know, same thing. Arcade, walking around, hanging out. Its boring. I was thinking all of us should go in the woods, just for fun. If u want too." He says, nervously. Hes such a nervous boy, its cute. I look at Bev, because i go everywhere with her. "Do u want to go?" I say, looking at Bev. She turns at me, looking at me.

"Your really asking me that? Of course im going u stupid people." She says laughing. We all giggle, walking towards the woods. It was school the next day so we had at least 4 more hours out. It wasnt hot but wasnt cold. It was just a nice temperature and i love these type of days. The woods were only 15 minutes away.

15 minutes later:
We arrived at the woods, it was starting to get dark and i didnt like that because i dont like being out while its pitch black. I pray it stays a bit light.

"Why are we even going in the woods again Ben?" I say, picking at the skin on my arm due to stress. He looks at Stan. "Tell her instead of standing there." Ben says, i immediately look at him my anxiety kicking in.

"We just wanna go in the woods and sit around a campfire i found, trust me. Nothing will happen. We are friends and we wouldn't try anything to make u feel nervous." He says, rubbing my back. Somehow i felt like he was telling the truth. I light a cigarette. "Alright, lets go in." I walk into the woods, blowing the cigarette smoke out my mouth.

5 minutes later.
We arrived at the campfire. There was two long logs to sit on, and a big set of twigs, sticks etc to light on fire. Me and Bev sat next to eachother, i feel nervous without her by my side. She is my world. "So, who wants to lit the fire?" Bill says, i look around seeing no one answered. I broke the silence. "Me, since you idiots are too scared too." Standing up, and taking the lighters off Bill. I opened the lighter, putting the flame onto the pile of sticks and wood. It lit up immediately, around 5ft. I sat back down. Everyone started talking to eachother. As did i.

1 Hour later.

It was dark but the light of the fire and streetlights made me feel someway safe. So did Bev. She was puffing away on her cigarette, as usual. Eddie And Ben went home because they were too scared. I was scared too but i didnt wanna ruin the fun everyone was having. Everyone stopped what they were doing. I whisper to Bev. "Whats going on.." I say, she covers my mouth.

Thats when the Bowers Gang appeared infront of the pathway we used to get here. I sighed. Bevs hand left my mouth and landed on the log. I lit a cigarette to reduce my stress. "Smoking are we now y/n?" Henry says, laughing with his minions, Patrick, Vic and Belch. "Its only one, why are u looking at what i do?" I question him, blowing the smoke out my mouth. Henry and his gang immediately stop laughing. "Watch ur mouth y/n, before you get yourself into trouble like you did last month. Remember what we did to you mhm?" He spits out. I immediately shut up. Im not having anyone find out that he carved his initial into me.

"What do you want Henry? Cant you just leave us alone. We havent done anything to you and u continue to harass. Its like you have a crush on us almost." Beverly says giggling. All of us bust out laughing. I was on the verge of tearing up because of Bevs words. I wipe my tears, calming down. I could hear someones eyes staring at me. I looked to patrick, his eyes were staring through my soul. I immediately looked away, putting my cigarette out on the log.

"Shut ur whore mouth up, we all know half the guys in the school has slept in your bed." He says angrily. I was not having this fucking mullet manwhore talk to my friend like that. "Why the fuck are you talking? You are nothing without your gang of minions. Fuck off u gay manwhore." I say staring at him. Oh boy i was scared but i wasnt gonna have him talk to Bev like that. His eyes widened, looking at Patrick. Patrick started smirking. While Vic and Belch went to grab Stan and Richie. I tried to get them off, but i was grabbed by Patrick by my waist. He whispered in my ear. "Youve gained an attitude love, maybe we need to do something about it mhm?" I was pinned against the tree.

Henry was infront of me while Patrick was tying my hands behind the tree with rope off the floor. Fuck, whys he so strong. I was trying to get my hands free but no luck. Beverly was on the floor unconscious as Belch had punched her head into the tree. I had tears flowing down my face. "Crying now? You had a very nasty attitude before." Patrick says, wiping my tears away smirking. I felt so weak and helpless. "Get your fucking hands off now." I say, crying. He just laughed, his finger trailing my collarbone. I shivered under his touch. His hands were cold.

"Do whatever u want with her Patrick. Im going home. Use Belchs car to get home." Henry says, tapping Vic and Belch to get into his car. They drove off. Everyone was unconscious except Stan. He was slowly sitting up against the tree. Patrick had a blade in his hand, opening it. "What should we do with you mhm. Humiliating me and my friends, thats not very you, isnt it y/n." He questions me. Why was he being horrible again? I was tired and exhausted. Plus it was dark and i didnt know what time it was.

I swallowed some cries back.
"Please, i'm sorry. I just want you to leave me alone, or just be normal and not horrible to my friends." I say, trying to keep my eyes open. He was looking my body up and down slowly. He looked at me, moving my hair out of my face. "You should of thought about that before opening your mouth and using such words." He says, cutting my top open slowly. My eyes widen. No no. "Patrick please dont." I say crying my eyes out. Before i could say anything, my top was on the ground, my bra on show for him. He just stared, smirking. "Such a little slut." He says.

I was crying, and everyone was starting to wake up. Patrick untied me, i grabbed my top putting it back on. I was pulled forward by Patrick, he had his grip on my upperarm, walking me through the woods. We made it to his car. "Get in, ill take u home. Im not having a little weak girl walking home in the dark." I was exhausted and just wanted to sleep. I got into the passengers seat, and tried to keep my eyes open, but they just wouldnt. My eyes shut and i fell asleep in Patricks car.