me and your ghost || lexdine

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it had been a couple of weeks since incarnate lord had shut down. they decided to shut down after nadine's death, and we were all released to go home. i was excited to finally be back home and away from that hell hole i was trapped in for so long, but i was also not so excited, because that meant i would have to see my mom again. my mom and i definitely didn't have the best relationship to say the least. she never really cared about me or my little sister, caroline. she only ever cared about getting the votes and being mayor. even after my dad died, she didn't even seem sad. she didn't even grieve. she was just worried about getting re-elected as mayor. it made me sick.

jake and devon had been put into the foster care system, and they both had foster parents. despite this, i still begged and pleaded for them to come and stay with us for a while. my mom and both sets of their foster parents agreed that jake and devon could stay with us for 3 months, which wasn't a super long time, but it was long enough for me. after everything that had happened to us so far, i felt scared and alone without them, but i would never admit that to them.

i woke up the morning after jake and devon had arrived to stay with us at around 8. they were both sleeping in sleeping bags on the floor across from my bed. i looked down at them both and smiled. then my smile suddenly faded away. i didn't know why, but for some reason, i felt a little weird? i thought maybe it was just me being paranoid. i mean, i was lexy cross, the girl who had been sent to incarnate lord because her and her friends "made a homemade bomb" and killed jake's foster brother, even though that's not what happened at all, so i had every reason in the world to be paranoid, i thought. even though the weird feeling didn't go away, i got up out of bed and did the same things i did every morning. i went to the bathroom, brushed my teeth, brushed my hair, got changed.

even though it was still pretty early, i decided to wake up jake and devon so i could make them toaster stroodles, which were my favorite. i got up from my bed and bent down, violently shaking jake's shoulder.

"good morning, sleepy heads." i said to them as they slowly shifted awake. "what time is it?" devon asked, barely awake. i could tell devon was much more of a morning person than jake was. "it's only-" i paused to check the time on my phone. "- 8:30." jake still would not get up. i started to playfully kick his sides. "come on jake, wake up, you've gotten up way earlier than this before." i laughed. he then quickly sat up and accepted defeat. once we were all ready, i lead them to the kitchen.

we saw my mom sitting on the couch, watching the daily morning news, sipping on her black coffee. her face beamed when she saw us up and ready. "well, good morning lexy, good morning boys. how'd you sleep?" she asked. we all looked at each-other. "it was good until your daughter kicked me awake." jake laughed. i glared at him. "okay, i did that after i woke you up and you wouldn't get up." i laughed. "anyway, i'm gonna fix toaster stroodles. do you want one, mom?" i asked. i knew she would say no, but i still thought it'd be a nice gesture. "no thanks hun, but thanks for asking." she said, not really paying attention to me. i nodded, and got the toaster stroodles out of the freezer

after i had toasted all of the toaster stroodles, we all kind of just went back to our rooms, but jake and devon decided to stay downstairs, because they wanted to beat each other in mario cart.

when i walked back into my room, that weird feeling was still there. the kind of feeling you get when you know you're not alone, but no one seems to be there. i decided to try and take my mind off of it by getting out my journal and journaling my thoughts. i decided to get a journal after my dad died, so i could write and jot down how i felt. it really was my therapy throughout all of this.

after about 30 minutes of journaling, i got bored. that weird feeling still wouldn't go away, and i was getting sick of it. when i finally turned to my right, i couldn't believe what i was looking at. i thought i was having a horrible nightmare. i thought i lost my mind.

"nadine?" i saw the figure of nadine hovering next to me. she didn't look how i thought ghosts would look. she was foggy and blue, and was wearing a beautiful white gown. "hi lexy!" she said. i rubbed my eyes aggressively to make sure i wasn't seeing things. when i removed my hands from my eyes, she was still there. "i'm dreaming, right? you're not actually here. it's just my imagination." i stared at her in utter shock. nadine's eyes widened. "what? no silly, i'm here." she replied. "no, no you're not. you're dead. i watched you die." i replied. nadine laughed. "that is true. but i don't like to see it that way. i just like to say that i'm on vacation.. a vacation that'll last forever, but still a vacation." i shook my head.

"chucky, i'm done with your tricks. i know this is just one of your tricks again. i'm not falling for it." i think i knew in my heart that it wasn't one of chucky's tricks, i just thought it made more sense to me that way. nadine looked saddened and confused by what i had said. "what? chucky? no, it's me, nadine." she said to me. i aggressively rubbed my eyes one more time, just to triple check i wasn't seeing things. when i removed my hands from my face once more, she was still there. nadine walked around the bed and sat next to me.

"so, what have you been up to lately?" she said as she kicked her legs up and down as if she were a child. i stared at her. "even in death, you're still the most optimistic person i've ever met." i replied. i thought about how i should respond to her question. "you want the honest answer?" i asked, and she nodded her head. "i've been crying nonstop because i'm the reason you're dead." for the first time in a long time, i saw her frown. she shook her head in disapproval.

"no you're not. it's chucky's fault. i shouldn't have followed him upstairs.. that was a really stupid idea." she laughed. i didn't think it was very funny though. "i'm sorry i couldn't save you. i'm sorry i wasn't there in time." nadine put her arm around me. "it's ok. i'm here now, and that's all that matters." she smiled. i shook my head at her "no, no nadine, it's not okay. everyone thinks you commited suicide. they need to know the truth. they need to know why jake's dad is dead, why devon's mom is dead, why my dad is dead, why junior is dead, why every single one of chucky's victims are dead. they deserve to know the truth." i spat out. it seemed as though she didn't know how to respond, so she just rubbed my shoulder.

"why are you here?" i asked. "well, i was given the option to pick ONE person to see again, so i picked you." she smiled. "what the hell, nadine? you could've picked your family, why did you pick me?" i asked, crying. "i wanted to make sure you were okay." she replied. "well, i'm not, if i'm being honest." nadine nodded, and took a long pause to gather her thoughts. "well, i was given 30 days on earth, and then i have to go back. so turn that frown upside down, and let's the most out of the time i have left here." nadine said. i looked at her and nodded.

"okay. we will, don't worry"

AN: sorry this chapter was short!! there will be more soon, don't worry (: