me and your ghost || lexdine

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after driving for another hour or so, we finally made it to six flags. i had only been to six flags one other time when i was five, and i don't remember it much, so i was excited to practically experience six flags for the first time again.

it was a really hot summer day, so we doused ourselves in some spray on sunscreen. as i was helping spray devon down with some of the sunscreen, nadine asked me a question. "do you think i need sunscreen, too?" she asked. i looked at her as if she were the dumbest person alive. i shook my head no. "why not?" she asked. i thought about it for a moment. "because you're dead." i mouthed. it seemed as though nadine was hearing this news for the first time. "ohh right. i forgot." she said.

when we were done applying the sunscreen, we walked into the park as nadine hovered over me. she was doing loop de loops in the air and saying "wheeee!" over and over again. but since she only had 30 days left, i decided not to say anything about it.

as we walked into the park, we made our way over to the ticket booth, so we could get our tickets and make our way fully inside.

"how many tickets, ma'am?" the man at the booth asked. "four, please." she replied. the man gave her the tickets, and she handed in the money.

"this is gonna be so much fun!" nadine exclaimed. i slightly nodded. i wish nadine and i could ride all the rides together, i wish we could chat and hang out all day and just have a good time, but unfortunately that wasn't possible.

"what do you guys want to ride first?" my mom asked us. we thought about it for a moment, and then jake spoke up.

"how about we go on the kingda ka? everyone is always talking about how terrifying it is. maybe we should try it out." he said. "scary? rollercoasters aren't scary. i've seen babies scarier than rollercoasters." devon said. i rolled my eyes at him, because i knew he was full of bullshit. "i think it would be fun, jake. and i can't wait to see devon cry like a little baby when he realizes how terrifying it really is." i laughed.

after roaming the park for about eight minutes, we made it to the all famous kingda ka. i was absolutely terrified of going on this ride, but i wasn't about to let my friends know that, especially not nadine. nadine saw me as this incredible strong and powerful person, and i didn't want to let her see me cry over a rollercoaster. so, i sucked it up, and got on the ride. i told nadine she could sit next to me, since most likely, no one would take that seat. so, she sat down next to me. she buckled herself up and pulled the safety handle bar down. the man operating the ride looked at me with the uttermost terrified look in his eyes. i could tell this was the craziest shit he had ever seen in his life.

".. did that handle bar and seatbelt just move by itself? tell me you saw that too? you saw that, didn't you?" he looked into my eyes, hoping for a yes answer, but i shrugged my shoulders and acted like i had no idea what he was talking about. "what do you mean?" i asked, pretending to be confused. he just paused for a minute. "i've got to stop smoking so much weed before my shift." he said to himself as he walked away.

that same man then went over the speaker to give us some simple instructions on how to keep yourself safe during the ride.

"alrighty folks! hello and welcome to the mighty kingda ka! make sure to keep your arms, hand, legs, feet, and any other body part you would not like to lose inside of the cart at all times! remember to keep your belongings secure in your pockets, or we have designated cubbies for your items while you enjoy the ride! remember, we are not responsible for any of your belongings you may or may not lose on this ride! and remember, if you see a safety handle bar go down on its own, or see a seatbelt buckle by itself, you're lying to yourself, and you probably should've laid off the weed before you came here! enjoy the ride and have fun!" he said in a somewhat cartoonish voice as the rollercoaster slowly took off.

"ooh, im so excited! are you excited, lexy?" nadine asked. i smiled. "yes, i'm so excited! i've never been on this ride before, have you?" i asked, trying to play it off as if i wasn't absolutely terrified. "oh, no. when i was alive, the most intense ride i ever rode here was the el toro. i don't really remember much of it, but i know it was fun." she replied.

by this point, we had reached pretty much the top of the rollercoaster. a tip i had told myself whenever i would go on rollercoasters was to never look down, and just enjoy the ride, but my curiosity got the best of me this time. i looked down, and my heart skipped a beat. we were so high up off the ground, that everyone below looked like tiny little ants frolicking through the grass. it immediately took me back to the night nadine died. she was lead up to the very top of the building outside by chucky, and she went in to hug him. by the time i had realized what he was about to do, it was too late. he had already pushed her out of the window, and i had to watch her plummet to her death. there hasn't been a day gone by that i haven't thought about that day. it was horrible. watching my new best friend plummet to her death, knowing there was nothing i could do about it, is the worst thing i've ever experienced. i felt so helpless. i immediately started to cry.

once nadine noticed that i was crying, i saw her bright smile fade into a very concerned look, an almost scared expression. "oh my gosh lexy, what's wrong?" she asked. "everything." i said. "everything reminds me of the night you died and i just can't help but feel like this whole thing is my fault. i'm sorry i let you down, nadine. i'm so sorry." i cried. nadine tried to comfort me the best she could, but the rollercoaster was about to drop. "i know this isn't the time, but you better hold onto your horses buster, because this coaster is about to go down!" nadine smiled. even though i was in the worst mood possible, it made me happy to see nadine happy, so it made me feel a little bit better. i held onto the safety bar as hard as i could, and braced for impact.

"IM SCARED." i heard devon yell from behind me. before i could say i told you so, the rollercoaster went down, and all i could hear were the happy screams coming from nadine, and everything felt okay again.

after a couple hours of roaming the park, i decided to go on the farris wheel. i asked jake and devon if they wanted to go with me, but they claimed they were way too tired and worn out, so they just sat in the car and waited until i got done. i dragged nadine to the farris wheel, and we were the first ones in line. we waited for a bit until one of the carts came to a stopping point. the passengers who were just on hopped out, and nadine and i got in.

as the cart started to spin, i asked nadine a question. "so.. after the 30 days is up.. where do you go?" nadine thought about it for a moment. "well, i guess i just go back to being dead." she smiled, and i nodded my head. "does that scare you?" i asked. "well, of course it does. the idea of being alone is terrifying. but, i'm trying not to think about that for now. i just want to spend the last 30 days i have with you." she replied.

"i wish you were still here. i wish i could do something to bring you back. i'm sorry, about everything." i looked down at my feet.

"don't be. i'm fine. i'm happy. you do not have to apologize for something that was not your fault. you did nothing wrong, and none of this is your fault, lexy." she reassured, resting her hand on my cheek. i gave her a weak smile. "thanks for spending the day with me. i had fun." she smiled at me. "i had fun, too."

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